Cherchant (Kylo Ren x Reader)

Sixteen

Relieved to find out that Kaav had not been seriously injured by Kylo's Force choking, you return to where Kylo is waiting for you outside. You had apologized on Kylo's behalf, something that made your skin crawl. You resent that Kylo has tarnished what should have been a happy reunion. In the span of ten hours, you had gone through the entire gamut of human emotion and you aren't sure you can take much more tonight.

Without so much as a word you start walking toward the pier as he follows a few steps behind. He's embarrassed, giving you space. After a few blocks of silence, you spin on your heel to confront him, ready for the explanation you feel entitled to.

"I will not have a partner who is jealous of my friends!" You shout at him.

His looks genuinely sad as he drops his head, waiting to see if you have anything further to say.

Taking a step closer so that you can look up into his face, forcing him to meet your gaze, you say, "Explain yourself."

"I'm sorry," he says. "Actually, there's a lot we need to talk about."

Your stomach drops at those words. Inexplicably, you feel like throwing up. He must notice your panicked expression because he grabs your hand and squeezes it reassuringly. He guides you over to a bench near the water's edge and sits down.

"I really don't have a good excuse for what happened back there," he says ashamedly. "I obviously still have work to do on my anger."

"Clearly."

Your firm tone bores into him. The silence hangs heavily between you as he gathers his thoughts.

"Everything went smoothly on Corellia. I got the puck," he says pulling it out of his jacket pocket and handing it to you.

You switch it on and watch a blue hologram of an almost unrecognizable version of Kylo Ren dance around in the palm of your hand swinging his saber.

"I had to wait until morning to leave the planet undetected. The entire night I spent worried about you and dreading having to speak with Kaav to find out what was happening. I should have been here with you."

He stood up and paced around for a minute in front of the bench.

"I can't turn off the jealousy. I know it's irrational but I can't stand the sight of him. I'll try to be better. I'll apologize to him... and make it up to you."

You start to speak but he sits back down and holds his hand up to stop you.

"There's more," he says. "When I got back, Rey was waiting for me in the villa."

You watch him brace for your reaction. The sinking feeling is so intense your vision clouds for a moment as you absorb his words.

"Rey?"

Your voice barely works.

"But she's far far away... training Jedi or something."

You search his face for answers.

"She's at the villa now? Why is she here, Kylo?"

You aren't sure if you even said that all out loud. He sighs heavily. Clearly struggling to find words.

"She came to help. She had information about the bounty and she thinks she can play diplomat and fix everything. Before I could politely decline her offer, it became clear that it wasn't the entire reason she was here."

Get to the kriffing point!

"Fuuuuuck."

He lets the word out with a long breath.