花吐き病 「xicheng」

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Now, this is the time to find out who Jiang Cheng liked, it was a difficult task, almost impossible but he would try out anything just to find the secret person.

Time went by and he still hadn't done anything, he tried remembering everyone he had met and the feelings he had around them, he had already picked up around three people he could've liked but then looking closely to their relationship he found out he just hated them. He went towards the library and tried to find a book about the disease to try and find more about it and what he should do, he asked the librarian and he guided him towards an area full of medical books.

The librarian was surprised by his question, but I mean who wouldn't be? The famous Sandu Shengshou asking for a book of a disease caused by one-sided love? that sure was the rarest thing someone could ever see.

Jiang Cheng then proceeded to read the book, he spent one hour reading everything just to find out it was everything the doctor said, he had lost one hour of his life reading something he already knew. With anger in his eyes, Jiang Cheng rushed out of the library and went towards his house again. He went directly to his room ignoring everyone and everything, he didn't care anymore, he just wanted to stay in his room forever, and then ending his life there full of flowers covering his entire body. A terrible death but at least he wouldn't have to lose his precious time trying to find stupid things.

"Who are you?"
He asked while jumping into his bed, getting into his blankets. He was feeling better now, he could only feel the warmth of his blanket and the cold breeze passing by his face. It was the perfect combination of hot and cold. He even forgot about all the pain he was having inside his body, the pain wasn't only in his body but in his head too, he was too stressed and the idea of death always made him sad. Just imagining that he could die very soon made his entire body shiver, he hated to assume this but he was very scared of death, death was something he hated. He lost almost all of his family because of this disastrous thing. The same day he had seen Jiang Yanli die in front of his eyes Wei Wuxian jumped off a cliff. It truly was something unbearable to remember.

"Stop with this, Jiang Cheng."
He suddenly said it to himself, he felt sad, all of that happy warmth was suddenly destroyed by his terrible memories and thoughts. As much as he hated them, he couldn't help himself but think more about it, it was just like that Hanahaki disease but the cause now was himself. Jiang Cheng's mind was messed up, he hated himself because of this, he would always try to feel better but his personality didn't help anything, he always felt like he was a monster, screaming and throwing curses to everyone.

"How can I better myself"
'Try to understand yourself'
He often said things for his mind to respond, as crazy as it sounds he felt like his mind was his friend. Jiang Cheng was so scared of making friends that he made a personality for his mind, he was scared of his friends betraying him. Since he didn't know who this person was he also felt scared. What if he had fallen in love with the worse person alive? What if he had fallen in love with someone that is not alive!

A bunch of What if for no responses.

"Tomorrow I'm going to Gusu resolve somethings about Jin Ling, I hope nothing bad happens, I especially hope for no one to notice that I'm sick. If Wei Wuxian notices anything I'm going to be in such a bad situation."

Jiang cheng turned off all of his thoughts and went to sleep, hoping for a peaceful night.

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'good morning!'

Jiang Cheng said to himself in his mind as he woke up, he tried being optimistic once in a while. Today he was going to Gusu, he was happy that he would be able to find more people that could be his so-called love interest. He felt disgusted at the thought of liking a Lan but he didn't care at this point, he needed to be alive, it didn't matter if he didn't like the surname of that person, he just needed to be alive for Jin Ling. Jiang Cheng is Jin Ling's only blood-related familiar alive. If Jiang Cheng dies then Jin Ling would be alone forever, that was another one of Jiang Cheng's fears! Jiang Cheng would never let Jin Ling pass through the same things that happened to him, he couldn't let his nephew alone. Still knowing all the risks of death, Jiang Cheng still wouldn't dare to say anything about his illness. He knew that telling someone about his problem would be such an advantage in finding the person but he didn't have the guts to do it, it was too much for him, it wouldn't even be possible since he didn't believe in anyone, he preferred to be caught coughing flowers than telling someone. That would be so embarrassing.

Jiang Cheng put on his clothes and got his hair into a bun, he went towards the door and tried making some exercise in his throat to make him not cough any flowers, if he coughed any flowers today It would be the death of him. The madness Wei Wuxian would make in his life would be too much, he would be fucked up, Wei Wuxian would make him go towards everyone and kiss them on the cheeks, and that's only the start of what Wei Wuxian would have on his mind. Wei Wuxian was a creature that Jiang Cheng liked to say was a creature full of madness!

And that's how we found out Jiang Cheng's third fear.
It's Wei Wuxian's mind!