will you love me again (kurotsuki)

What Can I Do??

There may be some typo in this chapter cause I'm rushing rn. I need to write it today since I'm scared I will forgot this scene😌 hell enjoy this chapter

' I'm fine'

From that day, Kuroo always visit Kenma's grave and its being Kuroo's routine. Everyday, he will come home late in drunk condition and he will crying hardly. Seeing his husband like that made Tsukishima worry but at the same time, his heart slowly broke into pieces..

'it's hurt..i know he loves Kenma from the very beginning but why did I still accepted him? Why did I need to face all this? Only if I didn't met him before. Only if we've never talked. Only if I don't fall in love with him. They must be living in a happy life..'

he smile while tears slowly fall on his cheek.

' it's my fault. Right? '

It's hurt. It's hurt him so much. He don't even have the chance to talk with Kuroo. Everytime he tried to talk to him, he only get shout or being ignore like he never exist in Kuroo's life.

He keep thinking that he is a bad guy who stole people's happiness. He don't deserve loves from anyone. He's a failure..he can't even make his husband happy. What type of husband he is. He's a burden to Kuroo. To his friend. To his family. To everyone. He's a burden.

"what can I do to make sure you'll happy?? I'm sorry 'cause I'm not a good husband. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry", he mumbled while crying in his room.

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" Tetsurou, err...breakfast is ready. So..err...you need to eat. I've cooked a mushroom soup for you. So open the door," Tsukishima called his husband for breakfast.

" just eat first. I'll eat after you," Kuroo answered him. Tsukishima feel like his heart wanted to break again. Kuroo don't even want to face him. He don't even want to see his face.

" err...dont worry..I'm gonna leave by now. I'll visit Akaashi today so you can eat now. All the foods are in the kitchen. I'm sorry for bothering you. I'm leaving now. See..yah.." footsteps heard leaving the room. Tsukishima grabbed his car's key and leave their apartment walking towards his car. Once he arrived he drove his car to meet Akaashi.

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Kuroo walked out of his room and go to the kitchen. He looked at the food that his husband cooked for him. He take it and throw it away. "why should I eat his food. I can buy it myself," he then opened the fridge and take a beer and drink it.

He take shower and dress up. Ready to go to his workplace.

He hates his husband. He hate the fact that he already married. He hate the fact that the love of his life already dead. And it's all because of him. He hates the fact that he didn't have the chance to confess to his crush that have the same feeling as him. He hates himself.

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" ah...Tsukishima, come in. Kou was already go to work so it's only the two of us," Akaashi greeted his friend and let him in. Tsukishima only nod and walked in. He puts his bag on the floor and sat on the couch while Akaashi walked to the kitchen and after a while he come with waters on his hand." so..how was your life with Kuroo? Everything fine?" Akaashi asked him. Tsukishima just gave him a fake smile and say "yeah. We're doing fine, " he lied. Akaashi just nodded because he knows that his friend was lying but never ask for it. He didn't want to make his friend more stress. They continue with discuss about their work since they work in the same place. They were both work as a doctor. But that day was their off day. The discussion continued until afternoon. At that time, Bokuto come home for lunch with his love Akaashi.

" HEY! HEY! HEY!!! TSUKKI!! long time no see. How is Kuroo?" Bokuto yell as he walked to the kitchen and hugged Akaashi. Tsukishima just gave him a weak smile. " Bokuto, we've met yesterday right? And yeah Kuroo is...fine? Yeah he's fine," Tsukishima answers him with a small chuckle." are you okay?? You look weak. Are you sick??" Bokuto asked with a worried tone. "y-yeah I'm fine. Don't worry. I just..a little both tired lately. It's because I worked until late night. Don't worry," he say as he walked to the bathroom. His head feel dizzy. Everything looked blurred even he's wearing his glasses. Suddenly he feel like he want to cough..then he ran to the bathroom faster...he cough hardly..and he washed his face. 'not here' he taught. As he walked out the bathroom, his head started to feel dizzy again. He can't see well. And suddenly....

THUDD!!!!

Akaashi and Bokuto who heard the sound ran towards it. Their eyes widened as they saw Tsukishima is lying on the floor.

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Soooo....new update😌I don't even know what I'm doing rn. I don't have time to double check it since my phone almost die hahah..but yeah hope you like it...