will you love me again (kurotsuki)

Don't Make Him...

THUDD!!

Bokuto and Akaashi shocked when they saw Tsukishima lying on the floor. They hurriedly get him to the hospital. After a few minutes the arrived and rush him to the doctor. Akaashi in other hand can't stop moving worried about his friend. Just a while ago they saw Tsukishima weak face but they didn't do anything and now he was in the hospital. Bokuto felt the same but trying to keep calm. He know his friend will be okay.

" Koutarou..."- Akaashi.

"hmmm..." Bokuto hummed as an answer. Akaashi look at him. Bokuto can see the worried face on him. He smile patting his head. Akaashi started to talk again..

" do you think--there's something happened between Tsukishima and Kuroo? I mean..Tsukishima never talked about his life with Kuroo and everytime I ask about it he will change the topic and sometimes he just ignoring it. He looks busy lately and he didn't wanna go home. He say there's nothing important he can do at home and that's why he keep busy. I don't know but..is it because what he said at Kenma's funeral?, " Akaashi sounds really worried. Yeah..it is. Tsukishima never mentioned his problem with anyone. No one know about his life with Kuroo. He keep busy with his work. (he made himself busy). He didnt wanna go home because he knows..no one will wait for him. Nothing special in his house. Even his husband didn't wanna talked to him. Its just like he's living alone in that house. He'll do everything to avoid him thinking about his problem with Kuroo. Even though he's hurt but he's not weak. He didn't want people to think he's weak. So he must forget about everything. His personality changed when he's out of his house. He just keep himself calm like nothing happened.

" I-I don't know. Everytime is with me he'll acted normal like his old self. But same as Tsukishima. They never mentioned each other. If I ask him how Tsukishima is..he will answer that Tsukishima always with you so he told me to just ask you. I bet there's really something but I don't know what. I- feel like...i don't know.." Bokuto looks frustrated thinking about his bro.

" I will never forgive him if something happen to Tsukishima, " Akaashi greet his teeth. They remained silence after that and suddenly the Tsukishima's rooms door opened as revealed a sweet doctor. Akaashi get up and walked towards the doctor.

" Ennoshita-san. How is him? Is he okay. Something happened to him?, " Akaashi can't stop worrying about him.

"he..Tsukishima is..yeah. He's okay. He just tired due to overworked. He just need more rest. I can see him work more hard lately. But dont..err..dont worry. He'll be..err..fine," Ennoshita, Tsukishima's senior when he was in high school, gave him a weak smile.

" it's good to hear it. He looks pale lately. I'm worried about him. Thank you, " Akaashi said in relief. Ennoshita smiled at him." yeah. You're welcome. If you'll excuse me I need to go now," Ennoshita bowed to him and Akaashi just nodded. After that Ennoshita walked but after a few steps he turned back and say.." tell Kuroo-san to take a good care of him. Make sure he give him enough love. Dont make him suffer more. Not get me wrong but...I just worried about my junior. Kay.." with that he continued to walked leaving Akaashi an Bokuto on the corridor.

Akaashi and Bokuto then walked to meet Tsukishima in his room. When they was about to enter the room,the heard Tsukishima hummed singing. They smiled and walked in." Tsukki...hey...you just humming but its sound really good. Sing for me..." Bokuto entered the room and hugged him tightly. " Koutarou stop it. You'll kill him just by hug. And don't ask him to sing if don't want to," Akaashi who followed being him hug Tsukishima gently. Tsukishima just smile." nah..its okay. Tank you. And don't worry Bokuto-san. I'll come to your house next week and I'll sing for you Kay? " Tsukishima chuckled when he saw Bokuto's eyes sparkled." Yeayyy!!! That's our Tsukki!!" "Koutarou! Tsukishima isn't ours. He belong to Kuroo," Akaashi look at Tsukishima and he saw Tsukishima expression changed. His smile faded few seconds and smiled again. At this point,he knew it. Something wrongs. "yeah..i..belong to him," Tsukishima continued his smile. Wider that before. But its that really a true smile? Without pain? Heh..'yeahh..i belongs to him. But it's okay. As long as I have this two and the others..I'll always fine. At least they're worried about me. But I'm sorry guys. I can't tell you the truth. Thanks to Ennoshita for not telling them the truth.'

***

They leave the hospital and sent him to his house. " Tsukki..do wanna stop somewhere or just straight to your house?" Bokuto asked him. "oh it's okay. Just keep going. I don't need anything. Thank you for asking," he smile a little. And then they keep straight to his house once they arrived, Tsukishima thanked them but Akaashi said he want to meet Kuroo. Tsukishima invited them in but they wanted to talk to him personally so he walked in calling h it s husband.

" uh..Tetsurou?? Are you there?" he knocked Kuroo's room's door.
" what do you want this time?" he answered.
"uh..uhm..Bokuto and Akaashi is outside. They want to talk to you. And don't worry. I'm not with you when they talk to you. They're waiting," he then left the room and go to Akaashi told them that Kuroo will talk to them. After a few minutes Kuroo out of his room and moved his leg towards his bro. Once he arrived, he saw his husband talked to Akaashi with a smile. Tsukishima saw him and excused himself to the kitchen. " make sure you eat properly and take enough rest. And Ennoshita said you can take a day off tomorrow. Sooo rest well okay. And..dont force yourself to do something stupid. You need to smile more. The light wge you smile keep fading ," Akaashi said and kissed his forehead. Tsukishima just smile a little an nodded. Bokuto too..he hugged him and do the same as Akaashi. He gave him a forehead kiss. Meanwhile Kuroo just looked at them. It's like he didn't exist there. Being ignored. After a while Tsukishima the leave them alone.

"sooo..what..do we talk about, actually??" Kuroo started the conversation. The two of them then looked at him. " Bro..can I ask you something?" - Bokuto. "ahh...sure. What?" kuroo furrowed his eyebrow. "is there something happened between you and Tsukishima??" Akaashi asked him directly and Bokuto nodded in agreement. Kuroo just keep himself silent a few seconds before he answered them. "no..theres nothing happened. We live happy here. Why? Did he say something?" Kuroo answered calmly. Ohhh how good is his skill acting like nothings happened. Happy? Did they really live happy? Maybe for him. Maybe he felt happy seeing his husband suffered everyday.

" nahh..he didn't say anything. He just looks so tired so thought you're having a fight. That's why we're worried about him. Ha faint at our house but we bring him to the hospital," Bokuto answered him. Kuroo was shocked hearing that Tsukishima faint. He never expected that Tsukishima will get sick since he's a doctor." so..is he okay? Something happened to him? It's nothing right? " Kuroo asked him worriedly. he don't know why but knowing that Tsukishima faint made him worried. " Ennoshita said he's okay. He just need some rest because he's doing to much worked. The hospital is busy right now so we will be busy but he looks like he working on something that we didn't know. He keep working and he keep forgot to eat. I can see how he worked lately. He looks tired. Did he get enough sleep. He looks pale?" Akaashi answered with a worried face. The question 'did he get enough sleep?' how can he know. He never pud attention on him." I..dont know. I sleep...earlier than him. So I don't know?," with a small voice he said it. Akaashi look unimpressed with the answer but he didnt want to ask. "hmm..is that so? Okay then but make sure he take enough rest. Ennoshita asked me to tell you to take good care of him. He want you to give him more love and don't make him soffer more. I don't know why said this but there's something that they didn't told us. There's a secret that they keep from us. So take a good care of him. He's your husband after all. We need to go now. Remember what I say, " with that Akaashi and Bokuto leave their friend house. Kuroo still standing there trying to understand what Akaashi told him. He keep questioning what Ennoshita mean by 'don't make him suffer more' what was that?? Did he know about our relationship? Did Tsukishima told him?

He walked in ans saw Tsukishima was in living room holding a book whike talking to someone in his phone. He can see how weak his husband looks. He heard his husband conversation..

"ahh don't worry Ennoshita-san. I'll be okay. I'm in my house. Just...thanks for helping me about it. - - - - ah about that.. I think I'm not gonna do it. Maybe one day if I really need to but I bet I'm okay to not doing it. - - - - I..heh..i don't care I think. Its not like it's possible for me to have it. - - - it's okay. I'll be fine. I'll meet them later. I've planned to meet them. It's been a long time tho..- - - - oh ahh he's..here-" he stop talking when he saw Kuroo stared at him. He then stand up and put his book on the table. He bowed to Kuroo and leave the living room to his room. Kuroo wanted to talk to him but he didn't have the chance because Tsukishima already leave him to his room. Seeing his husband leave him like that make his heart hurt. But he didn't know why. It's not like he love him. He don't love him...right?