Listen Carefully [UNDER REVISION]

Chapter IX: Devil Thoughts

When I arrived in my home I let out a sigh my brother is not really here to accompany me. I don't have enough courage to go in my room since I can hear screaming of my mother there, I lay down on the couch and closed my eyes. Then I heard some sort of whispering I looked at my surroundings and I try to blocked the noises inside my head. I keep hitting my head using my hands begging them to leave my mind. Then I stand up while hitting my head I looked for something that will distract me I saw the knife on top of the counter. The whispering keep getting louder.

"Kill yourself"

"End your suffering"

"Your brother doesn't need you"

"Take the knife and stab yourself"

"No, take the knife and cut your wrist"

"No, stab yourself"

"No, cut your wrist"

"Just end your life"

"Just kill yourself!!!"

The whispering keep getting louder I try to slam my head on the wall but I stopped in the middle of doing it when I heard Roseline and Natalie's voice outside the door. I didn't even hear a car pulled up in the drive way.

"Sophia?, Are you there?. Open the door" Roseline said while knocking on the door

"Sophia it's us, please open the door" Natalie added

They are here this is bad they keep knocking on the door. As I grab the knife on the counter and tried to cut my wrist but someone destroy the door and then I saw Natalie and Roseline go in. They noticed me holding a knife their eyes widened, they tried to approach me but no matter how badly they want to get near me I stepped backwards.

"Sophia let go the knife, we don't want to hurt you" Natalie said and tears started to fall down on her cheeks.

"Sophia, don't you dare do something stupid again. We are here don't worry let go the knife please" Roseline added she was crying too.

I just shake my head and keep stepping backwards but I felt someone held me in place, William use the backdoor to get in. He take the knife in my hands and give it to Roseline. I let out a bitter chuckle and tried to comprehend what just happened. I can still hear the screaming in my room so I cover my ears and started to cry. I felt someone arms wrapped around my waist and the back of my head against their chest. I also hear some soothing whispering the devil thoughts subsided all I can hear is the sooting voice of William. Natalie and Roseline let out relief sigh, Roseline hide the knife somewhere I can't reach and see. William help me to sit down on the couch his arm is still on my waist. Natalie take my hand and looked at it, checking if I don't have cuts, she let out a sigh when she realized they stopped me again. Yeah, I tried so many times to kill myself since I witnessed the death of my parents. I can't count them actually I even take some medicine to manage my suicidal thoughts. I can only remember few of my suicide attempt.

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*Flashback*

It was a beautiful day in UK my parents just got buried 5 days ago. I was living with my grandparents and everything seems fine or so they thought. I stopped muttering any words, I just met my big brother during the funeral of our parents. Our family started to get worried about me because I will just looked straight ahead, my eyes that were usually cheery it turns lifeless. I can still hear the crashing sound, screaming of my mother, the whispering of strangers watching us not doing anything or calling for help. They just stared at us they didn't do anything to help my parents I was pulled out first I was lucky to survived said by the rescuer. I'm not lucky that I'm alive, I will carry this tragic and painful memory until I die. I looked at my surroundings my grandparents is not aware I'm not home. I was in on the top of the building looking down on the streets the people started to have a commotion looking at me. I inhale and exhale I start to get up and preparing to jump this is the faster death I know. I moved forward but someone held me in place I tried to get out to his gripped but a 7 year old girl cannot fight an old man. He bring me down the building and when I get down my brother was there and hugged me so tight. Thankful to the man who saved me.