xoxo, Janella [revamped]

Katapusan

March 15, 2016

Dear, Neil

Hi! I know that both of us are now being busy for our upcoming Prom and for these past few months-no, hindi pala months, years na pala! Dahil matagal ko nang iniisip ang feelings ko para sayo. Sa totoo lang? Habang sinusulat ko itong letter ko para sa'yo, hindi ko talaga maiwasang maiyak dahil naalala ko lang noon nung mga panahong nararamdaman kong nagkakagusto na ako sa'yo, I always kept on denying myself dahil una sa lahat, our friendship is very special to me and I don't want to ruin it dahil lang sa feelings ko na maaring maging daan ito para sa'yo na maging awkward ka sa akin at masira ang ating matagal na iniingatang pagkakaibigan natin. 

As my feelings grew deeper for you, doon ko na sinimulang magtanong sa parents ko kung normal ba sa isang magkaibigan ang isang tao na katulad ko na ma-in love sa bestfriend nila, and both of them said 'yes' to me. Dahil ganon nga pala ang naging love story ng parents ko, they are friends with each other during their college days and look at them now, they are still together. Kaya ayan, nagsimula na akong magdasal kay Lord na sana bigyan Niya ako ng sign na magpapatunay na ikaw ang naka-tadhana sa akin. I know it would sound cliche but I saw you wearing a red shirt in my dream, nakakatawa lang dahil akala ko nangyayari lang 'yang mga ganyan sa mga nababasa kong story dito sa Wattpad o kung hindi kaya sa mga napapanood kong Rom-Com, Rom-Drama at iba pang movies na may kinalaman sa love where the heroin will see the love of his/her life wearing that color of love in the middle of the crowd. But boy, I was wrong!

Dahil parang pinamukha ni Lord sa akin na maaring mangyari ang mga nababasa ko o napapanood sa totoong buhay nung time na pumunta ka sa aming bahay after our school ended nung grade 8 pa tayong dalawa, you are wearing a red shirt that is really similar to the one I have seen in my dream na tinernuhan mo pa ng black basketball shorts, and every time I will recall that scene, hindi ko maiwasang kiligin dahil unting-unti na nag-si-sink in sa akin ang lahat na ikaw na nga ang itinadhana ni Lord sa akin. And I really wanted to thank you for helping me in believing in love by showing me how much your love to me by being my wonderwall who is always there to save me from all the troubles that I am experiencing it. 

Gusto ko na nga rin palang humingi ng sorry sa iyo sa mga pagkakataong hindi ko nili-lift up ang sarili ko whenever you're trying to save me and waking me from all the insecurities I've kept in my heart dahil natatakot talaga ako na what if  balang araw... balang araw tumigil ka na sa ginagawa mo? What if I'm not worthy of your love? 'Yan lang ang ilan sa mga naiisip ko sa t'wing magkasama tayong dalawa. Dahil nakikita kita as a boyfriend material that a girl could ever wish for, and I'm really glad that I've met you, Neil! Thank you for being my star in my darkest moments, Neil. 

Kaya ngayon Neil, sinasagot na kita! Those actions and words that you have shown to me are enough for me to fall for you even more, Neil. I love you so much! Shet, kinikilig ako hahaha >.< hay nako, Neil! Pasensya ka na kung ganito ang sulat ko hehehe~

See you in our prom night, my starlight, my wonderwall, and my bestfriend!

xoxo,
Janella 

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author's note:

Natapos na rin ang REVAMPED edition nitong story na 'to na minsan ko nang sinulat way back when I was in junior high! Gusto ko ulit na magpasalamat sa inyong pagsubaybay sa kwento nina Neil at Janella! I'm really glad that you have loved the matured version of this story just like you have supported the first version of this story (na medyo out-of-this-world na story plot na halos magulat kayo sa bilis ng phasing ng story HAHAHAHA!) 

Hindi sa pagbibiro, I was really challenged on how will I give justice to my classmate's story para naman maging maayos ang re-imagine ng kanyang true-to-life story with her ex crush hehehez :D kasi sa totoo lang, supposed to be Neil is going to die in this story (dahil 'yun ang nasa original plot nitong story and that was requested by the REAL Janella herself) kaso I changed that idea dahil gusto kong makapani-paniwalang kwento para dito.  Saka isa pa, ito ang first time kong magkaroon ng love story na hindi nagkatuluyan ang 2 bida and I am really not good in writing drama, kaya sana nagustuhan ninyo yung mga eksena na involve and drama hihi!

Gusto ko ring magpasalamat ulit kay Janela Holgado dahil kung hindi niya chinika sa akin at nag-agree na kung pwede kong gawan siya ng wattpad version ng asymptotic love story ng kanyang crush :)  but for those who are wondering if the real Janella and Neil are still connected with each other as friends- as like what have been portrayed here, they are not friends anymore and they are now enjoying in their own lives now. 

To end my letter for you guys, I pray that you will always stay safe in time of pandemic may you fill your year 2021 with happy memories. I love you all! Happy new year!

-Kojejang109