WARNING SUICIDE ATTEMPT
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I ran and ran upstairs until I got to the top. Climbed over the rails that where basically hat bars. I couldn't do this anymore, why is it always me. I never get a happy fucking ending. I screamed as tears streamed down my face, why couldn't I have been happy. It doesn't matter anymore, I'm gonna be with my mom that all I need.
"HOPE GET DOWN FROM THERE THIS FUCKING INSTANT!" Aiden yelled
I turned me head towards him, tears filled my eyes. It was Aiden, Draco, Amelia, and Nik
"I'm sorry Aiden but I can't! It's all to much MOM IS DEAD! She was KILLED IN COLD BLOOD AND IT'S MY FAULT FOR LEAVING HER ALONE!" I yelled as tears fell down my face
Aiden tried stepping closer
"one more step and I let go! Aiden step back!" I yelled
Nik immediately pulled him back, tear filled Amelias eyes.
"HOPE! DON'T BE FUCKING STUPID!" Draco spat he was worried but he tried to cover it with anger
"WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU CARE! You don't give a dam about me Draco! I'm a fucking "dirty little muddblood" remember! But don't fucking worry because I have this to remember me!"
I rolled up my sleeve Showing him the red cut scar on my arm that spelled "filthy Muddblood"
" What do you mean MOM IS DEAD!" Aiden screamed
"You-you don't know! Mom was killed! AND IT'S ALL MY FAULT I LEFT HER ALONE! I WAS SUPPOSED TO PROTECT HER AND NOW SHE'S DEAD! WHERE WERE YOU AIDEN! YOU LEFT ME! YOU abandon me YOU LEFT ME ALONE! How could you do THAT! Where WERE YOU WHEN BARTY RIPPED INTO MY FLESH! WHERE WERE YOU WHEN GREYBACK CUT MY FUCKING ARM! Where were you when I was hit by the crucio spell twice! NO WHERE! AIDEN WHERE WERE YOU WHEN BELLATRIX THREW A FUCKING KNIFE THROUGH MY FUCKING STOMACH! No where because you where gone! You left me alone! And now I'm fucking scared and afraid to walk out of Hogwarts! Now mom is dead and I HAVE NO ONE! Why the FUCK WAS I THE ONE THAT HAD TO DEAL WITH IT AND NOT YOU!" I was broken
"HOPE PLEASE! I'm fucking sorry please! Forgive me but don't do this! I FUCKING NEED YOU! I can't do this without you!"
"I needed you Aiden I NEEDED YOU AND I WAS ALONE! But I forgive you! Because I don't intend on dying with hate in my heart!"
I turn around facing the flat land.
"I'm sorry AIDEN BUT I WASNT STRONG! And Draco don't worry! You WON'T NEED TO DEAL WITH A MUDDBLOOD IN A SLYTHERIN ROOM!"
I left go.
"HOPE!"
As I was about to fall I felt a hand on my shoulders
"Let me go! I want to DIE!" I screamed and kicked
"NO I'M NOT EVER GONNA LET YOU GO BECAUSE I FUCKING LOVE YOU!"
"LET GO AIDEN! please!"
Aiden pulled me up as I kicked and pushed him away. He then grabbed me and held me into his arms tightly.
"IT HURTS I-TS HURTS!" I screamed as tears filled my eyes and rushed down my cheeks
"I KNOW HOPE I FUCKING KNOW! But I'm here...I'm here now!"
He held me as I screamed, no words just screaming. Amelia was crying into Nik's arms she was sobbing. Nik didn't show any emotion, he just looked at me. And Draco...he was gone.
"I just wanted to be happy..." I said with no expression to it
Just numb and blank like me. Amelia then came sliding to me and wrapped her arms around me. As she cried. I was still crying but in silence I wasn't crying out loud I was just crying is pain and numbness.
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Fanfiction"Not one for emotion Evens...but I could give a good fuck" he whispered into my ear as my heart pounded Hope has always had a rough life but ever since she's heard of Hogwarts it's been her dream to attend. What happens when that dream finally come...
