His addiction

Chapter 90

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After that day Draco and I have been somewhat inseparable, there was days where he could act cold and distant towards me like something was wrong. I'd try to talk to him about it but he would get so angry I just decided to drop it. Fred and I talked and he didn't really mind, he did say that he cared for me and only wanted the best. My heart warmed with his soft words, he did make me promise that we wouldn't stop having fun together end I kept my promise. I would find myself pranking other students with him and George, they where showing me some of there new inventions and they where brilliant. I was sad to hear they where dropping out to attended the shop better, I was happy for them though. Mrs. Weasley did find herself upset with them but she saw how happy it made them so she gave in, I saw my biggest pranksters leave my side. After that I became somewhat more lonely because every time at lunch Draco would grab some food and leave me. I still have Pansy, Amelia, Blaise and Theo but they where always flirting and into there own thing, I let them be and would always leave. Kellian was always with Luna, they where so cute together and she was simply amazing. Nik was always with that girl he was shagging so I was left alone, I would sometimes be called over with Hermione, Harry, Ron, Ginny, Dean and Neville but they would mainly be talking about things I knew nothing of. I eventually just stopped going with them, I always felt like I was imposing. I found myself always going to the Astronomy Tower by myself after that. I was dreading the past few days as I knew Cedric's birthday was coming up, I knew I had to go visit him for once.

I would go see my father like he said every weekend but he would always send me to my room as he and the others including Draco would talk. I felt alone, Draco would always be shaken up but once he came with me he would calm down. He was around 70% of the time but I still felt lonely because even then it looked like he was always in his thoughts. I would eventually go talk to Severus once I felt too lonely, when I was with him I truly wasn't lonely. He would always make me laugh even when he didn't try, he would just say random funny things. He spoke to me about Lily, I never knew anything about her. Severus loved Lily as in Harry's mom, apparently he was the one who found her the day she was killed by my father. He took a risk in telling me about Lily but I knew he trusted me and I trusted him, after that I told him everything. Everything that has happened sense I've gotten here, he was mainly just upset that I would try to hurt myself when it came to Draco. After that Severus wasn't to fond of him.

The past few days I felt like something bad was going to happen, I didn't know what but it was just a feeling. I've been somewhat training myself when I used magic without a wand. It's been getting easier and easier, I could now do spells without saying them and just thinking about it. I was so proud of myself I told Severus but he had told me not to tell my father and I promised I won't. Today was the day, today was Cedric's birthday.

"Okay Hope, you can do this...this isn't about you, it's about Cedric" I said trying to contain my tears back

I took deep breaths, I wore all black today. I felt like it was the only right thing to do, I wore black pants for the first day since dive gotten back. I wore a long sleeve knitted crop top sweater. Black shoes and took deep breaths as I got Cedric present, lucky for me it was Saturday so I didn't have classes. I didn't wear any type of make up so my nose and cheeks where pink from the crying I'd been doing. My eyes where puffy and I finally opened the door to my dorm. Theo was gone so I was happy about that. The only color I had on me was brown but it was Cedric watch he had gifted me when we made up. I began to walk down the stairs slowly trying to hold any type of  emotional pain back.

"Look there she is, the cutest girl in the world" Draco said amused

His smile quickly faded as he saw my face, I knew I still looked like I had been crying so I looked down. I tried to walk away but Draco grabbed me from my arm.