𝐇𝐈𝐒 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 ❥︎𝒉𝒊𝒔𝒐𝒌𝒂

Ch.27| "promise me"

( TW: abuse, self harm mention, manipulative/controlling behavior, toxic relationship, blood)

Akari tried to focus. She really did. But the overwhelming fogginess in her head made it unbearable to even open her eyes correctly. She could heard Hisoka's worried tone as she drifted off, his arms shaking her shoulders while trying to get her to open her eyes, to respond to him at all.

She knew it was so use. After all, she would be out of her daze in a minute. It only took a couple minutes for her to re-cooperate. She should have seen this coming.

'you idiot! you know what happens when you use nen to show someone parts of memories!'

Her mind screamed but she didn't care. He had asked to see, after all, and she'd let him. This would just be the minor drawback she would have to deal with. 'give me a solid two minutes. i'll be out of this by then' Akari tried to convince herself. Truth be told she never knew specifically how long she was out for, but she guessed around thirty seconds at the least, five at the most. 

So here she was, her mind blank, eyes seeing absolutely nothing. Even her hearing had started to deteriorate. Hisoka's calming words had started to fade around her. She let her body go limp, knowing what was coming next.

Silently it came at first, flashes of color, faces swirling around her in the abyss of her own mind. She knew it was her mind and nen punishing her for showing people. Whisper wasn't supposed to work that way. 'give a command and it'll happen, just be sure to focus.' Well she had done that. 'anything, any command, wish, desire.' She had given a command. 'anything except memories, no letting people inside your mind, or they'll die.' The last part hand't been true to date. For the last person she showed didn't die, but was still rather alive. Chrollo. Hisoka was also alive, so the last part couldn't be true.

But then again, her mind began to slip again. Just as she felt she had successfully managed to wake herself up, darkness came crashing over her. 

'alrighty then, what memories am i going to be punished with this time?'

Last time it had been when her mother had died. 

She had cried.   

Begging for the memories to cease so she could escape from the pain.

It didn't.

Akari prayed this time was different. 

Allowing her mind to select a memory, a rang of flashes from her life swirled infront of her eyes. Yes her physical eyes were shut, so she couldn't see, hear or feel Hisoka. However her brain was making her physical body groggy while her mental eyes were wide open. 'a trade off' The visions were spinning before her, kind of like a wheel of fortune, except with memories. It had been spinning, spinning, spinning, until it finally slowed to a stop. A blinding light flashed in her mind, she couldn't even see the memory her brain had picked for her this time. 'nice.' she sneered, allowing for the memory to overtake her, praying for it to be a nice, peaceful one. And that it ended quickly so she could get back to the man who was worrying over her. She was out of luck-