Finding Myself

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James POV

After I dropped Dee to her office I called Kim. I asked her to meet.

Kim POV

Why does James want to meet? I don't want to meet him. I can't forget about the kiss. He kissed me passionately and it's driving me crazy. I don't know who to choose. But he said something. He said Anthony cheated. Is that the reason we broke up? Should I confront Anthony? I told him he has my vote. What have I done? I gave him hope and I'm ruining my present life. She's happily engaged but I screw it. James is here.

"What do you want to talk James?"

"I just want to ask something. It's not really clear in my mind. Did I kiss you?"

I wasn't able to answer immediately. "Ahm. Kind of."

"Shit. I'm sorry. I didn't mean it." I was hurt hearing that. "I wasn't thinking straight. I thought I'm talking with Idina. I'm sorry. I really am."

"If I were her would you love me?"

"What?"

"Nothing." I tried holding back my tears.

"Kim I'm sorry. I like you. Truth is everytime you're around I'm happy. But you're making it hard for me. I love Idina and I don't want to hurt her. I don't know what happened to me. I love you the way I love her and it's wrong."

"What so wrong with it?" I burst into tears.

"Because you're not her. I'm engaged to her and you're her cousin."

I wanted to tell him that I'm her but I'm afraid hell just avoid me.

"I know I'm messing everyone's life. And I'm sorry. I didn't mean any of these to happen. I didn't mean to love you. I'm supposed to set Idina and Anthony."

"What?"

"Yes. I'm supposed to set them up. I'm supposed to get them back together. I'm almost getting it. But then you confessed your love."

"What are you saying?"

"I'm supposed to make her remember who she was. And the only way I know to bring her memory back is to get them back together."

"You don't know what you're doing. Stop this Kim. You don't know what happened between them. I don't think you'll like it."

"Then tell me so that I'll understand."

James told me everything he knows. I didn't know I was suffering. I have to stop it. I have to stop Anthony from pursuing her. I called LaChanze.

"What's up girl."

"Where are you? I need to talk to you. It's emergency." I said panting. I was running.

"Calm down girl. What's wrong."

"I made a terrible mistake. Where are you?"

Anthony POV

I'm telling Dee everything. She's still at the venue and I went there.

"Dee can I talk to you?".