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im insane and im tired

Even tho every part of my body hurts

And I feel tired all the time

Can't keep my eyes open

I really feel like I'm healing

There's still blood on the floor

Sometimes I can't control myself

I either sleep cover up in blood

Or with seven pills in my stomach

Or both

But I really don't want this anymore

And it's very scary

And new

And I really hate the new

But I can't live with that for the rest of my life

I deserve to be happy

I deserve to stand up for myself

I deserve to eat

And I deserve to declare war

to defend my honor

To betray my enemies

and anyone who disagrees with my POWER

IM GOING TO DEFEAT YOU AND IF YOU DOUBT NOT EVEN THE GREAT GREAT LORD CAN HELP YOU CAUSE IM GOING TO RETURN MY POWER IN THE KINGDOM YOU ARE A  JOOOOKKKEEE IF YOU EVER THINK ABOUT ME OR LAUGH AT ME PREPARE TO THE DEATH OF YOU AND YOUR ALLIES. YES. I WILL >NOT< HAVE MERCY ON YOU IN THE BATTLE . SO BE CAREFUL I WILL STICK MY SWORD IN YOUR BREAST AND    EAT   YOUR HEART WHILE YOU BEG ME TO    PLEASE   STOP .