The Restraint Love | ✔

#30: It might help!

How was it possible that tough guy was me? It's me! I could recollect those flashes of the past event. 

"Siddharth, you mind your own business don't interrupt." Gautam was scowling, and I glared at me. 

"Withdraw your hand and I will walk off," making a deal. 

"Yeh matter mere aur junior ke beech mein hai, don't interrupt." Not backing off, I shoved his hand away in infuriation. 

"Yeh matter tumhare aur ek ladki ke beech mein hai, I have to interrupt as you were going to slap the girl." Boiling in anger and frustration, I never adored his personality. Too much self-centred and considered himself superior to rest. 

"Siddharth, why you have to fake as if you're hero and me the villain? Tere yeh drama mein se sayad ladkiya aur flat ho jaye but tu real mein hero nahi banega." He was mocking at me, as his respect was at sake. The whole school was witnessing the insult. 

"Tu ban hero, mujhe koi interest nahi. But kya kare hero bane ki jagah villain mein zayada interest dikha raha hai aaj kaal. Ladkiyo par haat utna koi hero giri mujhe toh nahi lagti," that caused some individuals to chuckle at him. 

"Tu apni limit mein rah samjhe..." he stepped towards me, clutching my collar. I was going to push him in exasperation but the canteen staff came in between and the argument came to a halt. 

Was that girl Sana? How I overlooked the fact? I don't even remember the girl face, had I even glanced at her? I was sitting over there with the only person, I had a connection at that time. Karthik, I knew only him among the crowd of strangers. At that moment my sight went on Gautam arguing with a girl, and I couldn't overlook the fact that he was on the verge of slapping her. I walked towards them, to escape the girl from that moron. 

I turned the page, but nothing further was written down. I riffled through the pages, in an attempt to find any clue but I was at lose. How could it be possible? The entire diary had just two pages written, I glanced at the pages it was so less in number. Were the pages ripped? But who did it? Why would her parents hide such a matter? They too might be unaware of it. My sight went on the last page and over there it was written. 

Mai Phir Bhi Tumko Chahungi... 
Mai Phir Bhi Tumko Chahungi...

I gazed at the page, my hands caressing those words. Eyes turned moist, those words were meant for me. She loved me beyond I could envision, murmuring those two sentence repetitively. 

The knob turned and I knew someone was entering inside, I gazed at the door. Raghav walked in, closing the door behind him. "What's the matter?" He whispered as if scared someone might catch him. 

"Raghav... I am the Kullu that Sana used to mention..." I found it hard as the revelation was troubling me. She was in my life much before her condition got worse, and as her father mentioned Kullu been the reason behind him losing his daughter. 

"Sid, you don't know the entire truth. Kullu Sana ke life mein tumhare aane se phele tha, mujhe laga papa sab bata diya hoga. He was in her life...." 

"Seven years back, ya sayad before that. I know it Raghav, uncle ji ne sab clear kar diya hai." He looked at me amazed, "par yeh diary read karne ke baad I know it's me. It was always me, aur sirf mai hi responsible hu uske state ka... Mai..." I paused on seeing Mr Gill on the door. 

"Ap kaise responsible ho sakte ho? Kya bol rahe hai, Siddharth?" He sounded confused. 

"Kuch nahi! Bro is just worried about Sana, you know that he knocked her down. And he always felt that he was responsible for the condition, doctor bhi na aaj kaal." Raghav wrapped the conversation in a way, that Mr Gill didn't get a doubt.