Let The Time Decide

Chapter 20

Krist POV

P'Sing called....
Not for a game or work..
He called that night just to check me out.. We talked for around an hour and hung up because of the next day early morning schedule...
It was always nice to have a talk with him and I got to ask the doubt that had been bothering me for a long time..

Yes.. Finally.. I asked about Kath..
And surprisingly he answered honestly this time, just not plain denial and simple friend kind of answer... He said " He doesn't know.."
He was surprisingly comfortable with Kath being around him... Kath was too easy to talk to and they were into many similar things...

I was already expected such thing because I could see that too...
I knew they could work out if they went out... But ...
A part of me was still wanting P'Sing to be single like me... I knew I won't lose him even when he got married..
We were Phi-Nong.. Will always be...
But still....

I was always worried him about being alone or lonely at home.. He was not a fan of asking help or company even when he really needed ... I always want him to have a confidant in his life who he could talk about everything...

But it stung in my heart somehow...
I am funny and ridiculous here, right??
But being me, I won't forget to ask about Kath being there at their friends gathering.. I was not Jealous.. not at all... Just want to make sure Kath was not from communication art major too... Huh???
Who are you trying to lie??
Obviously, You knew Katherine's work and still making excuses??
Shameless... Perawat...

No... I am not..
At least I got my answer, Kath was there because she was waiting for the Take away from that restaurant after dropping her sister off...
Then she left...

P'Sing promised me that I will be the first one to know if he decided to hit on Katherine...
He didn't want to hurt other's feelings with his confused mind..
As always .. my phi is a considerate gentleman ...

I am also a confused mess here.. I was so sure I am straight.. I dated girls before and still interested in girls.. Just I don't have much time left for romantic things now.. But strangely I felt too comfortable about all the shipping and teasing from every sources... I don't know I am joking around now or being seriously about possessiveness toward P'Sing..

Because now the thought of Katherine and P'Sing really bothered me a lot .. The sting in my chest was becoming too real... Am I really swing to that way ???
Shit...
I don't really care much about that...
But I loved him so much... I loved many people around me.. I loved my family, friends , colleagues artists and mae Yuyui...
But I couldn't put P'Sing into any categories.. He is not a family, not a sibling or cousin, not just Phi from GMM, also not a simple best friend too...
Where could I put him into???

P'Sing is just P'Sing for me...
There couldn't be anyone like him in my life again..
We started together with Sotus, We grew together...
Can't I have him as my P'Sing forever??
Without need to put into any categories??
Can't I love him as my P'Sing forever??

If I really asked him that
He will say "Yes... Of course.."
But I would sound weird ...

Those thoughts consumed all my energy and I was really quiet during my shooting the next day..
That was just a program of P'Tay, P'Off and P'Arm... Me and Namtarn were guests... With P'Tay and Namtarn being there, my absent minded self would not cause much trouble for the program ..
But I couldn't escape from P'Off ..
He dragged me away after shooting and asked me to spill...

I just told him I am confused...
But somehow P'Off showed me understanding eyes... and just told me to take my time and there was nothing to rush about....
Before we left for home I asked him
"How is everything with Gun??"

He smiled and said "Good..."
And gave me a final advice
" Sometimes we couldn't find answers and that's totally fine.. Stay true to your heart and Let the time decides..."
Then he left after giving a pat to my shoulder....

Arghhh... What if P'Sing won't wait for the time and got a girlfriend??
He was preparing for his further study in US .. He won't jump into a relationship now , right???

It is not like I want to make him mine and mine alone...
But I knew all along that I was the closest person to his heart. The one he let his guard down to... I love the thought about being his special someone...

Never have I ever thought about P'Off told something about today to P'Sing...
And I totally forgot that they were currently shooting the same drama ...

I was just too confused and staying near P'Sing won't help me at all.. So , I tried to stay away from him..
Everything seems normal to me and everyone... Untill the company decided to make a drama included all six of us together..
" I'm Tee, Me too.."

And the first official meeting with director and script briefing will be in next week...
Why now???

This is one in a million year chance of having all six of us in one series
Off Jumpol ,Gun Attaphan, Tay Tawan, New Thitipoon, Singto Prachaya, Krist Perawat....

I don't know how Mae Yuyui ' P'Kwang , P'James and all other mananger will work our schedules out to have same free days for that series..
But they will do somehow...

I will have to calm my nerves down before the shooting days start or I will be doomed....

They are all your Phi and they knew you too well... Be normal or you will get questioned...
I am thrilled to work with them now...