Unholy Sinner [R-18]

19 : Conjunctivitis

Aviona

Talk. What is to be talked about for?

" Matagal na nating tinapos ang pag-uusap na 'to Luke. And we both agreed to whatever talk we had" I stated calmly as we both entered his hotel room.

" I didn't. I never agreed to whatever you said. Sabihin mo sa akin ngayon, will it make me less of a good governor when I tell and show the public how much you mean to me?" Paniningil niya sa akin.

" Iyun lang naman ang problema mo diba?" Damn it! Bakit ba parang ako pa ang may kasalanan.

" Don't put all the blame on me now, Luke. Maayos kong sinabi sa 'yo lahat ng mga dahilan ko noon" Panunumbat ko pabalik.

" Yeah. Ang dami mo ngang dahilan eh. Naaalala ko pa. Pero isa lang ang lahat ng iyun para sa akin. You cannot love me because I am to be governor and you are not fit to be my wife" Still, he's talking of the past.

" Lang? Sapat na dahilan na iyun Luke. They will use me against you. Sa tingin mo ba kung ipapangalandakam mo sa lahat na mahal mo ako iboboto ka parin nila?" I told him.

" Oo. Because they need to understand that their governor is a good governor because of you. I am striving Avi. I a striving hard to be the best because I see you. Because I know that you are here. Hindi man kita nakakasama, sapat na sa akin na nakikita kita kahit malayo ka sa akin" He told me. Pain was evident in his voice.

" And what do you want me to do then? Step up and love you like how you wanted me to? Take the risk? Follow my heart?" I am triggering a conversation long overdue.

" Will you do that for me?" He was pleading. Napapikit ako dahil sa sinabi niya.

" Luke"

" Mahal mo ba ako?" He asked. Isang tanong na ang hirap kong sagutin.

" Mahal.mo.ba.ako?" Ulit niya

" Oo. Ikaw lang ang lalaking minahal ko ng ganito Luke. Minsan iniisip ko na paano kaya kung hindi ako anak sa labas. At hindi anak ng naging kabit ng dating gobernador? Na sana ay malaya kitang puwedeng mahalin na walang kinakatukan. Pagod na akong pagsalitaan ng mga masasakit na salita Luke. Kahit sa pinagtatrabahuan ko ay alam nila na anak ako sa labas. Humupa lang ang tsismis tungkol sa akin ng piliin kong mabuhay ng tahimik." I sighed when I saw him just looking at me.

" Then let's fight for what we have. Kung mahal mo ako, ipaglalaban mo ako. Because that's what I am doing, Avi." Seryoso niyang tugon.

" Let's start tonight. Don't think of what they could say. Don't think of what others may say." He said. Kung susugal ako para sa kaniya, maraming maaapektuhan. Iyung kapatid ko. Iyung pamilya ni Luke. Ni hindi ko nga alam kung matatanggap ba nila ako. Everything scares me.

But I also know that I cannot stay silent and ignore this feeling that I have.

It's time I give myself a chance. It's time I give this love for him a chance. Whatever the outcome may be, I will gladly accept it.

Kung para kami sa isa't isa, then I'd be more than greatful but if not, then acceptance is always at my beck.

" Take a shot for me, Avi. Let me prove to you that you are more than what you think you are to me" He said. Wala akong ibang ginawa kundi ang tumango sa sinabi niya.

Itataya kong muli ang puso ko para sa pagmamahal ko sa 'yo, Luke. Kahit alam kong hindi magiging madali ang lahat.

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