Unholy Sinner [R-18]

27 : Vaginitis

Aviona

My luggages are ready but my heart isn't yet.

I breathed in deeply. At the end of the day, a single question always runs in my mind.

Who am I?

Nothing.

Palagi kong sagot sa sarili ko. But this time, that's not the answer anymore. Because I am someone of great value. I am significant. I am not a value added tax nor trivial.

It's raining hard again. Bakit ba sa tuwing nalulungkot ako, malakas ang pagbagsak ng ulan. There's no paint of Luke's presence today. Umalis siyang mabigat ang loob sa akin at hanggang ngayon ay hindi parin ito nagpapakita.

Ngunit hindi na ako nagulat pa ng makita ko si Luke sa may pintuan ko. His eyes were dark and dangerous. Simpleng maong at navy blue na shirt lamang ang suot niya. Hindi halatang kagagaling lang sa opisina niya. He doesn't look like a governor today.

" You did not go to work. Why?" I asked

" My girlfriend is leaving me. Can't work" I can hear sadness in his voice. Maslumapit pa siya sa akin.

Huminga ako ng malalim.

" Akala ko di mo na ako maihahatid sa airport" I whispered enough for him to hear it.

I wish to tell him more but my heart cried when I saw him knelt down infront of me. Sa harapan ko mismo siya lumuhod.

" Please stay" Parang nauubusan na siya ng kumpiyansa sa sariling mapipigilan pa niya ako pero umaasa parin na mapipigilan ako.

He hugged my waist as he cried like a child. Nasasaktan ang puso ko habang nakikita ko siya sa ganitong sitwasyon. I cannot even bear seeing him in this situation. Masyadong masakit sa damdamin ko ang lahat ng nakikita ko.

Ako na mismo ang lumuhod para mapantayan siya at niyakap siya ng mahigpit.

" Be the governor the people needs, Luke. Don't give up on them because of me. Hindi kailangang ikaw ang bumaba para mapantayan ako dahil ako ang tataas para masabayan ka. Just give me time to prove myself that I am worthy of you." I whispered. Hinalikan niya ako.

The next thing I know, I am already pinned in his bed as he thrust deeply inside me. The making love was so much different from the previous ones.

Goodbye sex? Uso pa ba iyon ngayon? He was crying as he was making love with me. We cherished every moment because we both know that it won't last.

Satiated and exhausted, sobrang himbing ng tulog ni Luke nang mapagdesisyunan kong umalis na ng tuluyan. I made sure not to wake him up.

I looked at him one last glance before leaving finally.

I know that this won't end permanently. Someday, there will come a time that we could both find a way to be in each others arms again.

Someday.

Love is sinning. Because it isn't love when you don't sin. You sin because you love. Enigmatic but true. That's the reality of loving. And it pays a lot of guts to love. Because you have to be ready to take the risk. You have to be ready to sin to love.

Unholy sinner. A sinner in love and fervor. But a saint in misanthropy and abhorence.

'Till next time, Luke.

See you soon

I love you, goodbye

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