The drive to the beach was silent, at least for me. Everyone was talking, but I couldn't process what they were saying . I was focused on what I am going to do without Liz in my life. I hate knowing I'm still in love with her, and I know this feeling isn't going away anytime soon. Why did it have to end that way? Why couldn't it of ended in a better way, or even in an ok way, why did it have to end with us no longer even being in each other's lives anymore?
"Amanda!" I snapped out of my thoughts to see all of my friends looking at me, faces full of concern. "Are you alright?"
"Why do you ask?"
"You're crying." I pull my hand up to my face, feeling my wet and puffy cheeks, I didn't even know I started crying in the first place. "Amanda?"
I look up at them, "I-I'm sorry, I didn't even know I was crying." Emma hugs me, I basically melt into the hug, feeling her warmth as she hugs tighter.
"I hate to break up the cute friendship moment but we're at the beach." I open my eyes, looking out the front window as Kenny pulls into a parking spot. I smile and grab my stuff, ready to just lay on the beach and forget about everything that just happened. Yes I know I shouldn't be doing that, but hey, sometimes it's the only thing you can do.
I hop out of the car, running towards the ocean, "Finally!" I hear my friends laugh behind me as two of them run after me. I fall onto the beach, soaking in the sun. I lay there with my eyes closed, until Nicky walked up and stood above me. "So, I guess this is where we're setting up?" She laughs. I smiled and gave her a nod. She laughed harder while laying down her towel. Everyone began setting everything up around me, while I just lied there. I know it's not completely quiet, but it feels like I'm here alone, laying on the beach, listening to the waves. It's peaceful, happy, and calming, something I haven't seen in the last few weeks. But hey, it is what it is.
"Amanda you coming into the water?" I lift myself up as I look at all of my friends. Everyone was in the water, and I guess Izzy didn't want me to be alone, I smiled, getting up and walking to the water. As soon as I step one foot into the water, I get water splashed onto me. I laugh as I look at Kenny, the one who splashed me. I tackle him, getting him soaked in the ocean. We all continued to laugh, messing around in the water.
This is the kind of happiness I needed. However, I just couldn't stop thinking about Liz, if she's ok, I was a little harsh on her. But that's not really important right now. What is is my friends, and what's going on right now, not what happened in the past.
