The Light in the Dark (Completed)

Chapter 2: What Have I Done?

A few weeks have passed, and Jungkook hasn't posted a single video. Right now he is struggling with his depression. It is so bad that it physically hurts him to get out of bed. Every inch of his body ached as if he was beaten. He doesn't remember the last time he ate. He drags himself out of bed and heads to the kitchen. Grabbing a container of yogurt, he heads to his studio set up in his room. 

  He starts writing a song in his head, the lyrics capturing the essence of his emotions he is feeling at the moment. Quickly he writes it down, firing up his equipment he works on a beat to go with the song. It takes hours but he records the song. He eats the now lukewarm yogurt and heads back to bed not realizing he had just changed his life forever.

  Jimin tosses and turns, he can't get comfortable. His arm throbs where his manager had clutched his arm tightly. He has a bruise in the perfect shape of a handprint around his upper arm. His phone dings sighing he rolls over and grabs his phone off the nightstand. He squints his eyes as he gazes at the bright screen in the pitch dark room, slowly his eyes adjust and he can see a notification that Dead Inside has uploaded a new video. He searches him up and hits play on his latest video. At first, he is confused by what he is seeing. A toned chest is on full display, his brain finally registers what he is seeing, sunkissed skin, broad chest with well-built muscle. He sits up staring at the screen as he sings. This video is different, there are no lyrics and no info on the song, did he write this? He wondered to himself. 

  His bare chest is distracting, he hit repeat and sat his phone down so he could listen to the lyrics. The song is gut-wrenching, he knew exactly how he felt. Tears slipping down his cheek as he listened to the song over and over again.

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands youDo you ever want to run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screamingNo, you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me
To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one there to save you
No, you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my lifeDo you want to be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is overAre you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
But deep inside you're bleedingNo, you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one there to save you
No, you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my lifeNo one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's likeTo be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one there to save you
No, you don't know what it's like
What it's likeTo be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No, you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

  Jungkook woke up the next morning, sliding out of bed he went and showered the pain is down to a dull ache. He hated when his mood hit rock bottom and the voices in his head screamed how worthless he was and asked him why he even bothered to make music when he is a failure at everything. Those voices are the main reason he couldn't bring himself to upload his own music. 

  With a towel wrapped around his narrow waist, he went to his room and dressed throwing on a pair of black jeans and a black t-shirt. He sat at his desk and turned on his computer, he needed to upload something today if he didn't he would lose followers. As soon as he logged in to Youtube he checked his numbers, he froze in place starring at his subscriber count. He had gained a million subscribers overnight, how is that even possible? That's when he noticed the video posted at one AM last night. That's when it sank in what he had done, out of habit he had saved the song to his computer then loaded it to Youtube. He clicked on the video and cringed as his bare chest came into view, at least it was his chest and not his face he would have had a massive panic attack if his face had been seen. He scrawled through the comments and is shocked to see nothing but positive remarks.

  Some of them are comments on his body saying how hot he is others are simply asking if that is him. He decides to pin a comment, yes that is me, I was sick and didn't mean to upload this but I am so happy you all like my music. The title is Welcome To My Life. Since he has already stepped out of his comfort zone why not go a step farther and reply to his fans.

  The first comment floored him, it was from Tiny Dancer I think you are one of the few people that truly know how I feel, thank you for making me feel not so alone the comment read. He simply stared at the comment, he had no idea he even knew he existed, he wanted to reply without sounding like a complete wacko. You're never alone, if you ever need to talk send me a message I'm a good listener, it took him three hours to work up the courage to post the reply.

  Never in a million years would he expect what happened in the next few days.

A/N: The song used is Welcome to My Life by Simple Plan, this is a song I listen to when I'm sad because the lyrics hit hard.