The Light in the Dark (Completed)

Chapter 13: Amazing

  Jimin woke up with a groan his sleep had been horrible. He isn't sure what had triggered the nightmares maybe they are a way of coping with his situation. 

  He carefully slid out of bed so as to not disturb Namjoon. He grabbed his phone and headed into the bathroom with careful steps, not wanting to wake Yoongi.

  He closed the door and sat on the toilet 

JM: I'm in the bathroom texting you because everyone is still asleep and I had nowhere to go, so good morning. Sorry about yesterday I was planning on texting you later but the guys needed my attention since I hadn't seen them in so long.

JK: well good morning to you, too. I didn't sleep well last night I tossed and turned, my anxiety is off the charts right now

JM: I didn't sleep great either I had nightmares about my ex-manager. Yoongi heard me whimpering and came in to comfort me. I guess I should explain who Yoongi is since you don't know who I'm talking about. Yoongi is in a rap group with my ex Namjoon, Hoseok is my roommate.  Anyway, Namjoon was bunking with me for the night but I guess he couldn't sleep and decided to go for a walk. I guess I was crying in my sleep. Yoongi had woke up and peeked in on me he heard me crying so he laid with me talking to me till I fell back asleep. I woke up later and Namjoon and Yoongi were both gone. I was scared and in tears but managed to pull myself back together. The next time I woke up Namjoon was asleep next to me. As soon as I started to thrash he woke up and calmed me down. I feel horrible I kept waking him up

JK: I hope you don't mind, but what were your dreams about? 

JM: It's really messed up, I'm performing on stage in front of thousands of people when the music stops and the lights go out, a spotlight lands on me. Suddenly Byron is standing in front of me, he demands I get on my knees. I shake my head no so he punches and kicks me till I hit my knees, he forces me to suck him off in front of all these people. The messed up part is the audience started giggling and filming it. That was the most awful one the others were of him breaking into my apartment and attacking me in my sleep

JK: It's normal for your mind to deal with traumatic events like this. Of course, you're going to be afraid he will get out of jail and hurt you again, anyone would. As for the other, I interpret it as a cry for help, people could obviously see what was going on but turned a blind eye towards it maybe even laughed it off 

JM: Have you seen some of the news stories or even Youtube videos trying to paint me like a whore, they actually believe what he said. Their reasoning is because I'm attractive I use my looks to get what I want. I'm not even that attractive, if I was only using my looks to get work I would never get anywhere

  Jungkook stared at the last message he had received. He had to be joking there is no way he thought he was unattractive, but this is Jimin so maybe he truly does which blows his mind because he is the prettiest man he has ever seen. 

JK: do you own a mirror?

JM: of course I do

JK: do you actually look at your reflection?

JM: of course I do, my forehead is too big my eyes are too small and close together. I have a pig nose and my lips are too big, my necks too long and thin. I used to have a six-pack but I've lost so much weight my muscle has withered away to nothing, I look like a skeleton. I can't bear to look at my body anymore it's so disgusting. I'm trying so hard to gain weight, but I can only eat so much it's so frustrating

JK: none of that is true. Look, this is coming from a straight male, I think you're stunningly beautiful especially when you dance. I understand you don't see yourself the way others do, none of us do really. I hate that you are so hard on yourself and don't see what others do.