The Light in the Dark (Completed)

Chapter 17: Suffocating

  Jungkook frowned as he trudged up the steps to his apartment, a deep frown etching his face when he found his door unlocked. Opening the door, he walked inside and found Namjoon and Yoongi kicked back on his couch. "So you just going to pick my lock now?" he said, walking into the tiny kitchen to grab a bottle of water. Yoongi shrugged "It's not like we were going to steal anything" Namjoon cleared his throat as he stood up to face Jungkook "so how did Jimin handle finding out you are his faceless Youtuber?" Jungkook stiffened "was this a setup? Did you even have a leak at your motel?" Namjoon smirked "Hoseok was in on the plan that's who I was talking to on the phone."

  Jungkook is pissed he slams his water bottle down on the kitchen counter "I didn't tell him! I fucking lied about everything because he wanted nothing to do with Dead Inside. He said he was developing feelings for me and he didn't want to be the typical gay boy to fall for the straight guy. If I had told him, he would have got up and walked out, I don't want that. Fuck!" He yelled pulling at his hair "I fucked everything up."

  Yoongi and Namjoon glanced at each other "so he admitted he was catching feelings?" Namjoon asks. Jungkook nods his head "I never lead him on, I told him I was straight from the beginning. I do care about him, fuck I want to protect him from the world. He's too beautiful and precious people want to destroy that, I'm not going to allow one more person to hurt something so precious."

  Yoongi and Namjoon walked over to him leaning against the counter Yoongi began to speak "you were around gay or bi people most of your life, so I know you don't have an issue with that, what I don't understand is how you keep insisting you're straight. You're not willing to think of the possibilities of being anything but straight, why? You know there is nothing wrong with being gay so why are you so insistent that there's a chance you are attracted to a male. Hell, it doesn't even mean your gay or bi you could be pan and Jimin is the one male you are attracted to."  

  Namjoon sighed "we're going to go but think about what he said, go back and watch the video you posted for him. Listen to what you said then let your heart not your mind guide you."

  As soon as they walked out the door he locked the door and turned off the light, heading to his room he stripped off his clothes and collapsed on the bed. 

  Jimin is stretched out on his bed when his phone beeps, he checks his notification to see a message from Dead Inside. He hasn't talked to him in almost two weeks. He felt guilty, he had sung that beautiful song for him and he had never thanked him for it. He has been so supportive during everything he has been going through, can he really just ignore him?

  He sat up and opened the message:

JK: I know this is a random question but how did you know you were attracted to guys?

JM: That is a very random question, before I answer I want to thank you for the beautiful song and apologize for not responding to your messages. I had some issues I was working through but I sorted them out, everything is fine now.

JK: I'm glad you liked it and I hope you understand the message, you are fucking beautiful don't let anyone tell you otherwise.  

  Jimin stared down at the new message, when he said things like this how was his heart not going to flutter.

JM: ok you really need to stop saying such sweet thing to me my heart can't take it. Anyways to answer your original question. I started dancing when I was five, I had begged my mom to let me take dance lessons, I fell in love after the first lesson. Skip ahead eight years and I'm now in my fourth year of ballet training. I had a new instructor and oh my god the man really knew how to fill out a leotard. I couldn't stop staring at his bulge much to my embarrassment. I had some very erotic dreams about him. I struggled for a while accepting that I was gay but my first kiss changed everything. His lips were so soft, he was so sweet and gentle. I knew at that very moment that boys were it for me and I never looked back

JK: So how did your friends and family take it?

JM: That is an extremely painful subject and I would rather not talk about it

  Jimin clutched his phone tightly to his chest as images flashed through his mind, his chest clenched painfully and he couldn't draw a breath. He lunged off the bed and staggered towards the door. He could feel the water surrounding him as he tried to draw in air but it is no use with every gasp he is drawing in lungfuls of water. He manages to weakly open the door and take a step out when his knees buckle, his vision is going dark. He slams his fist into the wall once before blackness engulfs him. 

  Jungkook answers his phone, he doesn't know why he would suddenly call him. He answers but Jimin says nothing. All he can hear is an odd wheezing noise, suddenly he realizes what it is and hangs up and calls Yoongi something is wrong with Jimin call his roommate and have him check on him Yoongi hung up without a word. He knew from the panic in Jungkook's voice there wasn't a minute to spear.

  Yoongi called Hoseok "check on Jimin there is something wrong. We are on our way." Hoseok jumped off his bed and walked out of his room he spotted Jimin on the floor. He ran to Jimin's side dropping to his knees, his lips are blue he's not breathing. 

  Hoseok lies him on his back, quickly he dials 911 he tells them he needs an ambulance. He starts CPR as he talks to the dispatcher. "Jimin, don't do this to me, fucking breathe" minutes later an ambulance shows up and two paramedics take over. Thanks to Hoseoks quick-thinking Jimin is breathing shallowly but breathing none the same. They place him on a gurney and whisk him into the ambulance.

  Namjoon and Yoongi arrive as they are loading him into the ambulance "Jimin" Namjoon cries out as he turns towards the ambulance ready to run to his side "don't interfere we will go to the hospital after we talk to Hoseok." Namjoon nods and heads to Jimin's apartment, they walk inside and see Hoseok walking out of Jimin's room "what the fuck happened?" Namjoon asks.

  "I found him slumped against the wall not breathing. I called 911 and started CPR, he started breathing on his own but it's very shallow. After they took him away I seriously thought he had overdosed, so I went to his room to look for empty bottles. I saw his phone on the floor so I picked it up and looked to see what his last messages were" he handed the phone to Namjoon who looked at the screen "shit! he doesn't know about his parents" Yoongi snatched the phone out of his hand and read it "I will talk to him after we check on Jimin. He's not going to deal well with this, he will blame himself."

  They headed downstairs to their vehicles "I didn't know panic attacks could get this bad" Namjoon says as they walk to their cars "all of us know to not mention parents around him so it's been years since he had an attack but when he got the message it must have triggered memories that he has suppressed and he was flooded with all these overwhelming images, so his body just shut down" Yoongi shook his head "this kid is going to give me gray hair"