NAVARRO SERIES 1:Caged By The Ruthless

CHAPTER 23

Soccoro Ricks

The tone lingered to his voice pained me even more it sends thousand of bolt which made me feel numb knowing I'm behind of those. He was like a lost child, as if his dreams are shattered, his hopes dispersed, his expectations crushed and the guiltiness I'm feeling is increasing . I was too because somehow I thought we would have a chance, not in a romantic way but maybe the slightest connections we both can provide.

Like he is my comfort zone while me I'll be the vulnerable one that will need him most of the time.

Then again my conscience will tell me, I had enough I need to do the right thing, for his safety and he'll be save from the darkness, and stop myself for being selfish. I'll miss everything we shared the passionate kiss and the amazing cuddles he let me experienced in his arms where I felt safe not thinking about my surroundings because it made me felt wanted and priority.

Stranger, that's what we really are we barely know each other despite of that we've done too far away we did more what stranger usually does. Unlike me I already knew some information about him while Exur he only knows my name...... Soccoro Rick's....the eighteen years old he met way back in New York City because he never budge to ask.

Honestly speaking it's hard for me to push him away, reminiscing the weeks we stayed together proving we aren't strangers. He showed me his caring side, his affection that people around him are blind to see those traits concluding those aren't exist to him, haven't in his vocabulary. But he showed me the other wise he proves them wrong and made me happy to the extent.

All of this happened because of that preposition which bound us together not minding our situation and point of view. It all started from it that eventually lead us to being close, and I don't regret any small details. Tasting each other's saliva, we've done most of that everytime we want it.

Again and again my mind will keep on telling me I'm doing the right thing. It hard for me to think of it like why chose to patch up things even it will hurts even though you know it will cause you pain. And why we can't be selfish sometimes, prioritizing yourself before others.

I admit this is killing me to the end of tingle of pain. Cause why on Earth when the time comes that I felt alive and happy why problems always resurface. Am I forbid to be happy and get a life of a normal teenager then realization will hit me, your life is not normal because you're chosing complication over simple it's your nature.

Now it's making me wonder if do I have a feelings towards him, am I starting to like him knowing I won't react like this like I'm losing someone that I will never meet again except to the after life. Admitting to myself wouldn't kill me right as long as I will chose to keep it to myself. I'm telling you who wouldn't be if he showed me what I'm longing before which I didn't felt enough to Bry. Then I concede yeah I'm starting to like him so I really need to pursue this because this is the only thing I know to give back whatever he did for me, and that is pain....

" What do you mean.... I saw it with my own eyes you look happy around me. ", He sounds broke and it doubled the pain on my chest the heavy feeling that will nearly suffocate me cause it's me who's inflicting it. " Then what's the meaning of this? "

" I am happy but do you think I like all of this and according to your preposition you'll leave once you feel better. ", I almost whispered still assuring the firmness of my voice. " And seems you look better now so why don't you go and continue your suppose to be life before you met me.
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" Not because of I'm happy Exur you'll expect me to embrace all of this. Come to think of it we met in a wrong timing in a wrong chance and if we'll continue this everything we'll goes wrong. One of us will suffer and I don't want to be the one to suffer because I had enough. You don't know me and I don't know you either. "