Love Like This ( Taegi x Yoonmin)

Chapter 7: 2025 and I'm so stupid for you..

I'm Min Yoongi.
25 years
Doctor- Cardiologist

2025 Winter Seoul, South Korea

"you will never be enough.

you can do everything right and they still won't see it. you can listen to all the things they say, even notice what irks them, things they try to hide away, you can put them first every single time. and it still won't be enough.

they will win over your heart by showing you that they are willing to give you everything that you want. it's always beautiful in the beginning, the calm before the storm.

and then, things will go bad. starting with the most mundane of things, things you wouldn't even care about giving up, things you don't even notice at first, because you feel that it's a tiny sacrifice compared to losing them.

they will change you, completely. you won't notice the change in your behavior – but you'll start distancing yourself from your former friends. you'll start asking for their permission before going out or doing anything.

and only when someone tells you you've changed and you find yourself fumbling to come up with a proper response to their why is when you'll realize what has happened. because that's how well they've fogged up our minds.

it's hard to break a habit when you have no idea that something was becoming one. it's hard to try and find yourself when you're the one giving yourself up so freely. and, it's hardest to realize that someone is not good for you when you've convinced yourself otherwise, every day, every night.

Sometimes is suffering is just suffering. It doesn't make you stronger, it doesn't teach yourself to not to give too much, it doesn't make you let go of things  and make your character build up.. It just simply hurt you..."

That's what written on the paper which laid on psychiatrist's hands. She was a pretty woman despite she is near to 40. She has kind and pleasant personality... Her eyes were busy with scanning the letters Yoongi has written all over the paper. Her forehead has deep frown. Yoongi already knows as a patient he is a little too much and impossible case.  The doctor's reaction confirmed it well.

It made Yoongi anxious. His palms started to sweat as the each second past and there was still no reaction from the doctor who sat in front of him.
"Fuck You Kim Namjoon" Yoongi cursed inaudibly through his  clenched teeth. He is sitting here just because of his beloved friend's constant nagging and those damn puppy eyes.

It was Namjoon's idea for Yoongi to meet Dr.Hwang before they leave to Canada. Dr. Hwang has a prestigious record as a psychiatrist. So the younger decided she is the best for his hyung.

And Yoongi, yeah. Yoongi wanted to get rid of the psychological nightmare he has been through for 9 years. He needed to get his Shit together before he go abroad for his future carrier. He can't stuck in to the past where Jimin even don't remember now. Jimin never wanted to be part of it. It has been always Yoongi who held things tightly even it hurt him beyond the repair.

It's not like Yoongi hates his beloved dongsaeng for not loving him. It's actually opposite. He'll never hate younger.. not just for not falling love with him, even younger kill him with his bare hands, Yoongi is not sure he can hate Jimin. So instead of hating Jimin, Yoongi started blame himself. Saying it was too stupid of him. Saying he is not enough for younger.

Somewhere Along these thoughts, he lost the brightness in himself completely. Darkness swallowed the every cell in his body.

The constant echoes in his head screamed him how insufficient he is and how unlovable he is. that led him to an early stage of depression; it wasn't like he closed off himself suddenly or didn't sleep, didn't eat typical symptoms you assumed. he slowly lose his glow, his passion. He barely made through the exams with the depression eating him alive. If there wasn't Namjoon, he wouldn't be here with his MBBS and whatever his qualifications. he is forever in debt with younger for that; for not giving up on his pathetic self.