Even if Harry doesn't really mind Eleanor, it looks like Louis does like her.
The two of them figured out an idea and if Harry is honest, he's jealous and he absolutely don't like their plan.
Louis suggested that he and Eleanor will go to a restaurant tomorrow and kiss each other, or better act like they do, so the paparazzi can obviously see them.
It won't take a while until there will be pictures of Louis and Eleanor dating all over the network. And then, Simon will see those pics and he would think that Louis is over Harry.
To be honest, Louis looks very comfy and happy when he talks to Eleanor and probably this whole thing would be good for Louis, to be free for a little time.
"Okay, I think we have to go now. Thanks for coming over Eleanor. I hope your plan will work. See you, Louis come on, we have to go"
Harry looks at Louis, waiting for him to come. But Louis doesn't move. He looks at Harry.
"Harry I will stay a little longer. Me and El have to figure out some more stuff. You can already go or you can stay and wait for me"
He didn't really say that. Harry can feel his eyes getting teary. It feels like Louis replaced Harry be Eleanor and he doesn't even notices.
"Y-Yeah, I will go. Now. Goodbye" Harry walks out of the coffee before Louis or Eleanor will notice that he's crying.
Louis promised. He promised that he won't replace Harry and that he will only talk to Eleanor, not more.
But now, they both already figured out how to act like a couple.
Harry calls a taxi and tells the driver to drive to the hotel. He won't stay here any longer knowing that his boyfriend is in there with Eleanor.
Back at the hotel, Harry hurry's you to get into his hotel room. Tears run down his face and he won't let anyone see it.
Harry doesn't know how to escape this. He wants this whole shot to stop but there's no way out.
More and more tears run down Harry's face and his breath goes hysterically.
He walks into the bathroom, seeing his reddened eyes and looks over to the shower. There it is, the sharper.
Harry doesn't have to think much, he takes the sharper and starts cutting his wrist. He feels the pain but what he feels because of Louis is a thousand times harder.
The hurt is Harry's only way out and he won't permit someone else taking control of Harry's life. Harry needs to get the control back again.
The more he presses against his body, the more it hurts. But that's okay. Harry just tries to ignore the pain. It's okay to hurt because Harry himself is the reason why it hurts.
No one else participated and that's the only thing that counts.
When he feels the blood on his wrist, Harry knows that he made it. He has back the control. At least for the moment.
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These high walls || L.S.
Fanfiction!TW! Harry thought it would be easy. He thought love is unconditionally. At this point Harry was wrong. He had to bear the risk for the love of his life. But sometimes, trying to protect is not enough.
