Bury Me Alive - Bang Chan ☑️

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             Song |  After Hours ~ The Weekend

I never seen so much blood other than my own.

It was shameful how I couldn't even look at what I had done. Even if the image was stuck in my mind it sickened me to see the knife in her throat and the mess on the floor.
"Let's start with covering her."

Chan and I bag her up. We tightened the bags with a mass amount of duck tape until she looked like a mummy. Afterwards, Chan sneaked her into the truck as I was ordered to clean up the pool of blood and the marks on the floor. When he comes back, He  just stands there with a smirk watching me. I can never understand what he's thinking.. And I guess I never will..
"When your done there take a shower and change. I'll set you some fresh clothes." He walks off leaving me to finish up.
After a bit he comes back with a pair of gloves and leans over to kiss my cheek.
"Go wash up. I'll finish the rest."
I nodded and walked to the shower. Guess I was taking too long, fuck I was just sitting there shaking as I poured bleach on the blood stained floor. God knows I wasn't meant for this kind of work. Chan especially knows. I Was never meant to burst out and make a live changing decision over a boy. I miss the days I'd cry over a tub of ice cream and a movie. Wasn't meant to be sitting here crying over a pool of fucking blood. What kind of crazy life was I living?

The water already ran warm for me as well as a towel and a pair of clean feminine clothes. They must have been his dead girlfriend's... I signed sadly and take off my dirty clothing.
It took me awhile in that shower.
So much blood washed by water. But the water could never wash away the sin I just committed. The sin of murder. Who was I to choose who would die like I was playing God? I was no better than Chan. No better than my killer...
"Y/n. Hurry up before it gets dark." Chan calls.
"Okay." I began to finish up by rubbing my face and soaping down every inch of my body.

We ended up riding out far to the ocean side a couple hours away.
"I'll go grab her." He turns off the car and walks to the trunk. Swiftly he carried her.
"This doesn't seem real." I said softly watching him as a breeze hits his messy hair.
"I know. Go grab the rope and the bricks." I did as I was told except I could only carry one brick at a time since they were extremely heavy. Chan eventually helps me gather the materials until everything was in front of us to assemble and rid her of contact. He than grabs the rope from my hands and begins tying the brick to both sides of the body. He looks down and than back to me for a second.
"You really did a number on her.." I looked down and he chuckles kissing my forehead. Chan than grabs the body and places it into ocean. Immediately, it was swallowed up by the dark salty waters.
"Chan?" He looks at me smiling as he heard me speak.
"Yes?" I continued to stare out into the waters as the waves crashed into the edge of land that divided me and my mistakes.
"What Am I anymore?" I ask touching the collar on my neck.
" Your Mine." He states.
I snapped my head to look at him. To look at his expression. But it wasn't a stupid cheeky grin or a smirk. It was a serious expression. What did it mean?
"Yours?" I asked.
"Obviously."
"What do you mean by that?" I said a bit frustrated.
"It says it on your collar." Chan scoffs.
"Your so confusing." I mumbled walking back to the truck. Quickly, I sit myself in the seat staring at the darkness that was befalling the sky.
"Confusing?" He walks back as well looking at me through the open door on the driver's side, " What do you mean? Your the confusing one if any. What did you think it meant?" I softly bite my lip contemplating every aspect of myself.

Oh gosh. It can't be. Is this really what I'm thinking? Is that it? Do I think of Chan as someone more...? Is that why I was so enraged at his girlfriend?  Was I really consumed by.. jealousy?
"I don't know."
"You don't know?" Chan raises a brow.
Suddenly, I looked him dead in the eyes with a certain fire in my soul.
"Fuck you. My lines are so blurred that I can't tell the difference between anything anymore. My emotions are shit. Wanna know whose fault that is? It's yours. Because your so charming and then your a fucking ass within the next second. Like you were all over me and then you go up all over a girl I didn't even know existed. You got your god damn answer, happy?" I shouted, which shook him a bit. I guess he was expecting me to be soft especially since I was still fucked over the events. But damn it all. I was going too crazy with emotions. Emotions he caused.
"Y/n, I don't think your in your right mind. You just need some rest. I mean you did just killed someone for the first time .."
"No. I've felt like this since yesterday with you. I hate it. I'd rather fucking die than go through that again." He looks at me softly before speaking.
"Jealousy."
"What no-" No no. That's not what it is.
"You just described Jealousy, Y/n." I scoffed which made him force down a smile.
"That's not-" Don't say that it is. If I admit it. I think it will hurt me more than the blades you used to cut me with..
"Nono it is what it is. Your basically telling me you got jealous of my girlfriend despite who I am. Y/n, you realize what you've implied right?" I sighed.
"I know." I swallowed hard as my hands shook even more than they'd had already been. Im finally slowly coming to terms with how I feel. As ridiculous as it was, as sick as it was.
"Well I'm single now.. so... " he pauses looking down, "I'm all yours if that's what you want.."
"Yours as in..?" He nods before leaning back to look around. But before he speaks he locks eyes with me.
"Yes. As in you can be my temporary lover."
"It's wrong to accept."
"Maybe. But you have nothing left to loose. So why not? I know I'm down for it." He bites his lip and gives a soft smirk.
"Fine." He pulls himself into the driver's seat. And while shutting the door he leans to peck me on the lips.
"We can continue this conversation when we get home babygirl. It's not smart to stay in this area for too long." Chan starts the car and we finally leave the coast of that dark ink abyss.

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We got back but this time the house seemed extra quite. Maybe it was because the space the girl had once filled was gone. Or maybe it was because I had fully lost touch with my sanity.
"Well we are back!" Chan says excited as he shuts the front door.
"It's quiet." As that silence filled the room more so, my heart began to almost burst out of my chest. Slowly, I felt a pair of hands wrap around my waist as well as a pair a lips touch the side of my neck.
"What do you want to do now, babe?"
"Ill do anything that involves you." After I spoke I looked up at him to see those cold sparkling eyes.
"Than lets make this place less quiet." He smashes his lips onto mine. And immediately I sync myself with him as he begins lifting up my shirt.

Chan's POV

Why didn't I just think of this before?

Sure I had feelings for my new ex at one point. But I should of thought of hooking up with Y/n along time ago. Should of torn her down in the shower. Should of totally and completely violated her in front of Johnny as he breathed his last breathe.. Now that is something I should have done. Maybe I'm just in a mood and I'll think differently later. But at this moment I couldn't think of anything better than fucking the girl I was supposed to kill a while back. If anything it was always my plan to completely break her and see the results. I guess this is another way to see it happen.. Simply it's:

Stockholm Syndrome.

Is it bad that this situation turns me on?

I had her pinned down all over the place. Couldn't get enough of the noises she made. If I'm honest I loved the screams and whimpers of murder. It was like music to my ears. However, those noises that came from her while I did the things I did, were oddly so much more blissful. Fuck, I loved the control I had over everything with her.. Not just her body, her emotions, her life, but her whole identity. It was like I was enlightened. Sex used to be a chore, but now it's like I've found a new religion.
"Chan-," Y/n whimpers, "Can you be gentle with this part? I've never done this before.." She becomes breathless trying to speak as she lays on my bed without an inch of clothing on her body.
"I'll try.. " I say trailing wet kisses up her stomach as I had just finished tasting her. Softly, I chuckled as I make my way up to her jaw line. Y/n whimpers again as I accidentally brushed myself in between her legs. I took it as a sign to begin a really long night.

"Let's see how long you'll last. Just a warning though. I don't think you'll be walking around anytime soon princess.."