Smoke // castano

𝗽𝗮𝗴𝗲 𝟬𝟬𝟭.

𝗽𝗮𝗴𝗲 𝟬𝟬𝟭: 𝗳𝘂𝗰𝗸 𝘆𝗼𝘂
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𝗽𝗹𝗮𝘆 𝘀𝗼𝗻𝗴
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"FUCK YOU Y/N IM FUCKING TIRED OF YOUR BULLSHIT"

"NOT SUCH A FAN OF YOUR BULLSHIT EITHER, VINNIE"

i was screaming from the very top of my lunges as my hot, abusive, toxic boyfriend kept pushing me around.

"MY BULLSHIT? MY FUCKING BULLSHIT Y/N?? WHAT FUCKING BULLSHIT? HUH?"

"YOUR FUCKING ABUSIVE, I CANT DO SHIT I WANT"

in the moment, i've never hated anyone more.

"MAYBE IF YOU WOULDN'T FUCKING LIE TO ME"

"I ONLY LIE TO YOU BECAUSE YOUR CONTROLLING. I CANT SEE MY OWN FAMILY ANYMORE GOSH DAMN VINNIE"

i wasn't lying though, he constantly, i mean constantly, needs me at his every want and need.

"FINE FUCK IT YOU CAN GO WHEREVER YOU WANT WHENEVER YOU WANT. HOWS THAT FOR YOU Y/N?"

"NO NO NO IM NOT TAKING YOUR SHIT ANYMORE"

i turned around and started walking away from him.

"WHERE THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOUR GOING??"

"AWAY VINNIE, IM GOING AWAY"

his hand was gripped on my wrist.

"SIT DOWN YOUR NOT GOING ANYWHERE. YOU UNDERSTAND ME??"

"FUCK YOU VINNIE"

tears were gushing out of my eyes as he threw me on the couch.

"FUCK VINNIE HUH? IM THAT BAD OF A BOYFRIEND HUH? I GAVE YOU A HOME, I FEED YOU, I BUY YOU EVERYTHING YOU CAN POSSIBLY DESIRE, I MAKE SURE YOU HAVE A NICE LIFE, WHAT ELSE DO YOU NEED??"

"A NICE LIFE?? ARE YOU SERIOUS?? YOU FUCKING THROW ME AROUND LIKE IM SOME DOG"

i wanted to die, right there, on this couch.

"OKAY? YOU ALWAYS COME BACK. YOU COME BACK BECAUSE YOU NEED ME. YOU NEED ME Y/N"

"WHY DO YOU KEEP LETTING ME BACK IN HUH? NO ONES MAKING YOU"

he was no more than an inch away from me.

"BECAUSE I FUCKING LOVE YOU"

"this isn't love vinnie, this is not what"

he cut me off and slammed his lips into mine. every single time this is what he always does.

"see you know you like it"

he put his hand against the side of my face.

"no vinnie, i actually don't"

i got up and walked into our bedroom.

"yeah i think you do"

he threw me on the bed and started kissing me, he went down my neck trying to get me to stay.

"why are you like this to me"

i got him to lay next to me.

"because i know you'll never leave me, and i don't know what to do with all this emotion"

are you kidding me? i'm his fucking toy, throw his emotions out on than fuck the next minute?

"alright i need to go"

i got up, grabbed my emergency bag and started walking towards the door.

"WHAT ARE YOU DOING?"

he ran after me,

"IM BEING FREE OKAY? bye vinnie"

i swear, i've never cried like this before.

"bb..bbuu... but i love you"

he started tearing up as his fist clenched.

"and you have no idea how much i love you, but i can't keep doing this. i'm only a teenager, i can't pledge my life to someone who's just gonna keep hurting me, but i'll always love you vinnie. maybe if you become better we can be together"

i faked half way smiled and ran out the door.
i ran and ran and ran until i found the car cynthia parked last week for me to escape in. haha yeah escape car and escape bag.

"hey mama...yeah yeah i'm safe...i'm coming home okay? okay! yes yes yes i'll be there soon"

i smiled out of relief, i was going home.

"there are no words to describe the depth of
your indifference"

"i'm so wrong, so wrong, to let you in my
home"

"and baby if i knew you were living in my
sheets, i wouldn't have shown you any love,
i would've left you in the club"

𝘁𝘄𝗲𝗻𝘁𝘆 𝗲𝗶𝗴𝗵𝘁: 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘄𝗲𝗲𝗸𝗲𝗻𝗱