i hate that i love you...

chapter 10- falling

Word Count: 773 

After about 30 minutes at the store, Ivy started getting tired, so I carried her and walked home. I said bye to everyone and headed home. Ivy was draped over my shoulder and about halfway home, I heard snoring. I smiled to myself, and tried walking carefully so I wouldn't wake her up. 

I got home, and set Ivy down on our couch in the living room. At this point, I had remembered everything that happened with Oikawa again, I had been distracted from it for a while, but now all those memories and thoughts came flooding back. I had remembered the way he sprung up when he heard their voices. I had remembered the way he threw me off of him like I was nothing more than shit. Like he couldn't care less about me. 

I decided I wasn't going to cry over him again. Not twice in one day. He didn't deserve any more of my tears. I pulled out my phone and called him. My phone only rung about once or twice and he answered. 

"Hey, can you come over? I need to talk to you." I said in a slightly stern voice. Enough for him to take me seriously this time. 

"Yeah sure, be there in five babe." He said before I hung up. I saw the same white car pull up a few minutes later. I walked out and got in his car. 

"What'd you wanna talk about love?" He asked me. 

"Why did you blow me off today? You left me for those girls...w-" I felt myself start to choke up again. "Why...?" I asked, with tears pooling up in my eyes again. 

I looked down into my lap and the tears came rolling down my face. I started breathing heavily with my sobs filling up his car. He was about to say something, but I interrupted again, "Why don't you care about me?" I said as my final plea for an answer. 

His hand gently cupped my face, forcing me to look up from my lap. He wiped my tears away, but it was no use. The tears kept falling down, like a flowing river that just wouldn't stop. I tried to stop, but the more I tried, the more they fell. 

"Hey...it's okay, come here." he said softly as he pulled me into a hug. I buried my face into his chest as I kept crying. 

"I'm sorry, look, I care about you so much. Tomorrow, we'll tell everyone about us. Okay?" he said while playing with my hair. I was so pissed, not at him, but I wanted to be. I wish he had been an asshole so I could actually be mad at him.  It's the worst when you want to be upset, and cry and scream at someone, but you can't because you care about them too much. 

*Oikawa's POV* 

Seeing Michelle cry into my chest made me realize how oblivious I've been these past few weeks. I hate that I hurt her. I'm so stupid. I wanted to take back everything I said and did. Even if I only thought of her as a hookup until now. I played with her long, smooth hair in my hand. Hearing her cries just tore my heart apart. 

I told her we would tell everyone about us, even if it ruined my reputation. Even if all those girls hated me now that they didn't have a shot. I pulled her off of my chest to look at her. God, even when she was crying she was gorgeous. I wiped the tears from her eyes and gently grabbed her face. I put my forehead against hers and touched her nose with mine. I wasn't looking, but I could tell she was smiling . I placed a kiss on her forehead and pat her head. 

I never really wanted to get attached to her, I honestly thought this would just be like all my other past things where it was just hooking up, nothing more. I only got attached once, and that ended badly, so I vowed to never let it happen again. But...the thing about this girl was, you can't help but get attached to her. She's so sweet and loving that it's impossible to not fall for her. She's like a trap, all this time of never wanting to get attached and here I was. Falling for her.

I wanted to be better for her now. I wanted to try harder. Just for her. This beautiful girl with hazel eyes and gorgeous brown hair, that I just can't help but care about.