Ethie's Story -A Divergent Fanfic

Chapter 4

My heart rate quickens. What will I do?

I make my way up to my room hoping he'll leave me in peace to think about the choosing ceremony tomorrow. I don't make it.

Before I reach my roomI hear footsteps coming from the other side of the hall. I stop and stand frozen in place.

Please be Logan, please be Logan!

No such luck. My dad comes down the hall.

"When did you get home?" He spits in my face.

"Just now" I say trying to sound confident.

"You're such a little unwanted coward! You should've stayed there!" He says his voice rising.

"Sorry dad" I say looking at the ground

"What's sorry going to do? I'm stuck with you here! Sorry isn't enough! I hope you choose another faction!" He yells.

He is overreacting. What am I gonna do? Stay in the test room forever? He's always loathed me, more so than Logan. It's because I'm a girl. He thinks that I have no purpose whereas Logan he still dislikes but he at least believes that Logan will do something with his life.

The voices in my head start, I hear him yelling over and over again. I cover my ears, close my eyes and scream. I feel something sting across my face and realize he has slapped me.

I cry and wail unable to control myself.

I feel Logan wrap his arm around me and slowly rocket back and forth.

He is whispering something but I can't process what he is saying into words. I slowly open my eyes and find that I'm sitting on the ground.

I don't remember sitting but I often blank out when I get like this. I face Logan but my mind is in a different place. I am looking into the distance.

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When I wake up I am in bed. I walk across my room to the mirror. My stomach aches as I stand up. I life my shirt to reveal a purple bruise. My face is pink from crying and being hit. I ignore it and walk downstairs. My stomach groans and I realize I haven't eaten all day. I grab an apple from the fruit bowl and eat while I sit on the couch.

Mum is in the kitchen, the dough has risen and she is rolling it into circles. I go over and decide to offer my help. Dad must be in the shower because I can hear the whistle of the got water pipes so I'm not worried.

"Want some help?" I say quietly.

"Sure sweetie why don't you get out the topping and make one for you and you brother" she says as if she hasn't heard me screaming or can't see the redness of my face.

I top mine and Logan's with cheese, tomato sauce and basil leaves. Here in Amity we do not kill animals therefore we are all vegetarian.

I put the pizza in the oven.

"Why don't you go into your bedroom for some peace to think about tomorrow's decision" she suggests.

"Okay thanks mum"

I lie on my bed and stare at the roof. If I choose Amity I will be able to stay with Logan and keep my beliefs in peace and kindness, if I choose Dauntless I will escape my dad and possibly overcome my fears and learn to be brave and if I choose Erudite I can pursue my need of knowledge. I have always wanted to learn more but I don't think I will ever choose Erudite, something about makes me dislike it.

That leaves Dauntless and Amity.

My thoughts are interrupted when Logan comes into m room.

"Tea's done" he states before leaving.

I go down the hall and into the kitchen.

Dinner is quiet and awkward. Dad shoots glares at me as if he's so disgusted by me.

After dinner I shower and start painting my nails. I decide on a sparkly yellow that I bought with mum recently.

I paint my nails in peace until I blotch a bit on my finger, I make my way to the living room where I find mum and dad on the couch looking through a photo album of when they were young.

"It was so much better be fore they came along" my father sighs.

"Mmhm" mother agrees.

"What are you doing here?" My father asks annoyed after he realizes my presence.

"I was just wanting to borrow mothers nail polish remover" I say looking a the ground.

"Always needing something aren't you?! Never satisfied!"

"I'm not the one living in a faction that values kindness and is the most awful person I have ever met!" I scream deciding that I'm sick of letting him ruin me.

"Oooohh who suddenly has courage maybe you should go and live with the Dauntless." He taunts.

"Maybe I will! At least I'll be somewhere that I belong!"

"If I could leave this faction, you and your brother, I would!' He shouts in my face.

I open my mouth to yell but instead hot, white, stinging pain. I fall to the floor and wait for my vision to return.

"What the hell is going on?!" Logan screams in anger.

"It's none of you business!"

"She's my sister and you hit her that makes it my business!" Logan yells

The voices are back,my father over and over again. I cover my ears and scream. I wail and cry to block them out. I sit on the ground curled up. I turn my hands into fists and grasp handfuls of hair pulling them. I am not conscious of doing anything, it's like I'm watching someone else.

I am screaming so much that I black out.