Just a Little Bit

Part Two of Goodbye

P20 Part Two of Goodbye-
ending?
The Winchester Diaries:

So basically, I have had a wonderful time sharing my story with all of you, and, if you let me, I would be honored to continue to do so.
The reason I am choosing to end my story is because it isn't exactly gold material, and I could focus my energy on stuff you guys actually might like. If you do want me to write the real story, I will, but, only if enough people ask for it.
So to satisfy the story, I am summarizing the ending. Thank you for an amazing run at things. I love you guys.
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After the Winchesters, the angel, and I learned Crowley's son wasn't going to be found, Crowley became set in getting back at me. Within that time, Kevin said goodbye and left for a better place, I guess. I was torn to see him go. Dean taught me how to drive in the impala, Sam made me his wing man at several bars, and Cas stayed by my side every step of the way. It wasn't until the first week of my last year of college that I discovered how all the pieces fit together. It wasn't until the last moments of my life I understood my reason, my mistake was being blind enough to not have seen it.
The Thursday morning I left for school, Dean and Cas hadn't gotten up yet. There was a hunt the night before so everyone was exhausted. Sam was up though, I gave him a hug before running out the door.
Classes were slow, as usual, math nearly killed me. All my friends were abroad and I was stuck in a class room, but I heard the noise. The sound that took four years to echo in my ears again. I hustled out of the class and found the Tardis hidden in the corner of the building, and out came Rose, the Doctor, and Jack. They messed up the landing and showed up a couple of semesters too early. We all hugged and tears of happiness shed. I told them all about everything that had happened and Cas and the Winchesters. I left out my illness though, they don't need to carry that burden. When we left to find the two hunters, I noticed the impala driving towards the dorms. We went to meet them when I noticed the math hall of the school had caught fire. Jack wanted me to ignore it but how could I? My class mates might be trapped! I ran back without the others noticing, Jack went to my room and found Sam and Dean looking for me. When they realized who Jack was, and believed I went back to burning building, they grabbed the others and sprinted to the fire.
Funny thing about helping others, you forget about yourself. As a ran through the flames, the burns and heat barely fazed me. It was the smoke and the flesh melting ambers that made me fearful for my life. The class room was empty, my throat felt black and my skin was charred. I eventually made it to the tardis which was parked in the hall, but my key was in the bunker. I never had it on me since I met the Winchesters.
I fell to the floor, hands pressing against the blue box, there was little oxygen left, I could feel death sinking in, like at the hospital. But I knew this isn't something I could come back from. My chances were up.
I curled up next to the blue doors, holding my head in my knees, the building crumpled in and fell through the heat hitting me and the growing flames. I didn't cry though, I was strong, I had seen Jack again, and the doctor and Rose once more before I... Well, you know. It was alright to go, I was over due anyway.
But the slight speck of hope kept my mind alive, Jack can run in and get me, he will me ok, nothing can hurt him. But, He didn't come. Not quick enough. I started to pray. Everything was happening so fast. My lungs couldn't find air and everything faded to a foggy black, or maybe that was the smoke. I could tell my skin wasn't going to heal very well, if I was able to live, I slightly hoped I wouldn't. Sometimes it's easier to give up.
"Castiel. Thank you, thank you for my life and for our adventures. Tell Sam and Dean thank you too, they mean everything to me. And make sure Jack and everyone else knows... I'm happy. I love you Cas, I haven't told you that before, but remember, only the good die young."
I felt his hands on my shoulders trying to help me, it's not his fault, his grace is almost out, he can't help me anymore.
The group of them were outside, all but Cas and Jack. The angel was no where, and Jack fought his way through the derby, but there was a spell, keeping him out. Crowley, the Winchesters thought as they once again watched flames consume another they loved. Rose had her head in the Doctors shoulder unable to watch me burn.
The pain of the melted bone disappeared as I left my body for good this time. I watched Cas hold the body in his arms, you couldn't even tell it was me. So dusty and red. Everything was red and black.
"I remember," I crouched by the sobbing angel. So lost in a jungle of chaos. "I remember now, you didn't just save me when I was born, you were with me my entire childhood," I put a hand on his back, "you taught me how to ride a bike, how to count, how to live and be free. And then you made me forget. You made me feel as alone and lost as you are now." He couldn't hear me, I could barley hear myself over the crackles of the falling building around the tardis. "But I forgive you, not that there is anything to forgive. But now I know, why you did it. Why I was where I was. You made me who I am today, who I was. And I'm sorry I couldn't be the person you wanted. I'm sorry plans had to change. You will always be my guardian angel." I kissed his head and watched time pass by.
When the fire burned itself out, I was zipped into a bag. No one asked questions, no thought twice of the one death. They went out to diner that night, talking about me, sharing stories, remembering. It was how I wanted it to be. Jack didn't say a word, Cas couldn't take his eyes off his hands. Leaving them like that was brutal but there was nothing I could do.
"Goodbye," my thoughts rang as bliss took over. It was bright, as expected, and warm and peaceful. Like most endings they should be sweet.
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I know Cas wasn't going to be able to bring me back, not again, not ever. And I know Jack will be hurt, but he knew this day would come. I'm not like him, I couldn't live forever.
The Doctor, Rose, and Captain Jack piled back into the little blue box, Sam, Dean, and Cas said goodbye and watched the Tardis dissolve. Dean patted Cas on the back and brought him in for a hug, "she's safer now."
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And I was.