𝕋𝕠𝕩𝕚𝕔 𝔽𝕒𝕟𝕥𝕒𝕤𝕪

Process

Omniscient
Los Angeles California

Dave sat by the pond writing all his thoughts in his notebook today has made a month since his been in the program so visitations start next week

He hasn't spoken to Ari since last week when she was with her family he decided to let her have her time with them

"You doing okay"Amber asked sitting next to Dave

He looked up at her closing his notebook

"I'm straight"He said truth was Dave was losing his mind he didn't understand anything his mind was going through they started one on one therapy last week and it dug up alot of mixed emotions Dave didn't know he was holding in

"You got family coming next week"She asked

"Yeah a few people"He said Jayda and Baby were suppose to be coming along Jeremy said he was busy so he wouldn't be able to make it

"Hopefully that'll make you feel better"She said with a light smile before walking away

Dave sat there looking at the fish in the pond soaking in his thoughts
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"Hello David how are you doing today"Dr.Davis asked

Dr Davis was Dave's one on one therapist

"Could be better but we know how that go"Dave said leaning back on the couch

"What 3 main emotions have you been feeling since our last session"She asked opening her computer

"Fustrated is the only thing I've been feeling"He spoke with some anger in his voice

"Let's dig a bit deeper what has you so
fustrated"She asked looking up at him

"Everything I'm irritated with the man I've become I'm unhappy with a lot of shit"He expressed then rubbing his hand over his face

"So let's start right there what man type of man have you become"She asked looking him in his eyes

"I'm an angry black man living in America"He said locking eyes with her

"So why don't you break this generational cycle"She asked

"Because it anit that easy you don't think I would've broke this cycle if I could've"He asked sitting up

"We all have a choice so why didn't you make the right choice David"She said taking her glasses off

She knew exactly what he meant but she wanted to dig up every emotion Dave has been keeping hidden

"It anit that fucking easy is you even hearing me cuh"He semi-yelled

"What made you make that choice"She asked

"Who was gone make sure my bruddas ate who was gone make sure my mother got the proper treatment who was gone make sure my brudda got laid to rest with respect"He said with pain in his voice

"There it is"She said getting up and going to sit next to him

"Fuck you mean there it is"Dave said looking at her with his face scrunched up

"You've been covering up all the pain and anger now I know exactly what to tackle in our next session"She spoke then standing up going over to the door

"So you got me out here expressing myself just to put me out"He said standing up shaking his head

"See you next week David"She said opening the door for Dave to walk out

He just chuckled a little before walking out
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"You've been being good"Dave asked Kairi as they talked on the phone

"Yes Ari got me food"She said happily

"What she get you"He asked it made him feel so much better talking to his daughter

"Chicken nuggets"She said

"Where Ari put her on the phone"He said

He listened to her shuffling around before her heard Ari's voice on the other end

"Hey"She said softly making Dave smile

"Wassup ma you been good"He asked making Ari smile

"Yes you been good"She asked while moving around

"Yeah I've been straight how's house hunting going"He asked

He loved hearing about what they got going it made him feel better

"I think I found a place"She said

"That's good Kairi been on her shit"He asked

"Yes she been asking about her momma I told her I'll talk to you about it"She spoke nervously

"She not even in New York when I talked to her moms she said she went to Arizona"He said shaking his head

He hated for his daughter not to have her mother in her life but he was going to make sure he was the best father and more

"Tell her you'll call or something"Dave said unsure about what to tell his 4 year old daughter

"I'll tell her something but I won't lie to her"Ari said

It didn't sit right with Ari lying to Kairi even if she was too young to understand one day she would