How to Sacrifice your Love?

Chapter 31: Ysabel

Dito ako ngayon sa coffee shop namin kasama ko si gian as he promised to me, treat niya. Wala parin kaming imikan ni Gian mamaya na lang daw ako magkwento para naman daw hindi masayang ang araw namin. Dinala ako ni Gian kung saan saan pumunta kami sa ocean park, enchanted kingdom, moa. Haay, buti na lang andiyan si gian kahit papaano nakalimutan ko ang sakit na nararamdaman ko ko kahit papaano naging masaya ako kahit saglit lang.

"So mind to tell me already whats your problem?" Biglang saad ni gian, nandito na kami ngayon sa manila bay at palubong narin ng araw, ang ganda pala dito lalo na kapag ganitong oras may sunset. Tinignan ko lang si gian, parang naiiyak nanaman ako sa tanong niya naalala ko nanaman yung mga narinig ko kagabi bat ba kasi kaylangan masaktan pag nagmahal ka?

"Hey its okay, im just here makikinig ako" gian smiled at me.

"G-gian im h-hurt" this time I cant help myself but to cry infront of my bestfriend, hinaplos lang niya ang likoran ko

"Shh its okay just cry, ilabas mo lang yan" saad ni gian sakin, I am so blessed that I have Gian in my life.

"Gian b-bakit ganun ang sakit masaktan pag nag m-mahal ka?" Hindi ko paring mapigilang hindi umiyak, masakit.

"Because that's love Chandria" saad sakin ni gian, hindi parin ako umiimik umiiyak parin ako

"Sometimes ang love ay parang laro lang yan tulad ng baketball, kaylangan sa laro may natatalo at nananalo. Pag talo ka you need to accept the fact that you lose pero may next time pang laro ang next time na yun you shoul ready to play at sa laro minsan you should also take the risk at pag nanalo ka naman aba jackpot yun chandria at you should keep that you are a winner in that game. You should know how to fight in the game to meet your goal, so chandria are you going to fight for that game or are you going to give up?" Saad ni gian, im still crying, hindi ko makuhang magsalita sa mga sinabi niya sakin, natauhan na lang nung pinahid niya yung mga luha ko gamit ang mga kamay niya.

"So wala ka bang isasagot?" Suddenly gian asked me. Ano ba dapat isagot ko? But I made already my decision last night.

"Ahm g-gian do you think that I should go also to new york? I should going to be with you" I saw the face of gian theres a shocked, before he can answer me inunahan ko na siya

"Im serious at nasabi ko narin kina mama at papa kanina at nakapag book na sila ng flight ko para sabay tayong aalis" yes I made already decision, masyado kasing masakit para sakin I need to move on, I need to accept the fact that jayson is not for me.

"You sure about this?" Paninigurado ni gian sakin I just nod and smiled at him

"Gian can you help me?"

"For what?"

"To move on" determinado kong saad sakanya, kailangan kong makalimot, magpapakalayo muna ako at mas mabuti narin to siguro

"Sure" and he smiled at me

"Tara na ihatid na kita kina kath may dinner pa kayo eh just fix your self, tignan mo nga yang mukha mo ang pangit mo haha" sabay gulo sa buhok ko kita mo tong lalaking to oh kahit kailan talaga. Napangiti na lang ako. Akala ko mamimiss ko tong kaibigan kung to yun pala sasama rin lang pala ako sakanya ang epic ko talaga. Haay this is it.

Sacrifice is one of the purest and most selfless ways to love someone, practice it daily.

- ysabel :)