Weeping Willow Tears

32-B

A lot of time had passed before it seemed like Elena was going to wake up. Me and Ester had been exhausting ourselves healing Elena and finding a way to bring Kol back. So far only one thing seemed like it was working which was fine with me as long as I got one of them back it was better than nothing. Me and Rebekah had become quite close and even she did her part in helping me and Esther. Klaus had disappeared and I knew she could feel it, I felt it when I touched her, it came off of her in waves. Pain. So strong it made me hurt for her. I would never understand what he got out of breaking her over and over that way but he did regardless. Rebekah said that pain is how he loves and I could see that in him very clearly. Yet I hated that for Elena who'd hurt and suffered so much already at his hands. You'd think that eventually he'd stop to say that's enough and just love her the way she deserved. Even the man I knew in the other time had trouble loving Elena the way he should've. I shook myself out of my thoughts and pulled my head out of my grimoire.

I remembered the way in the beginning when I was searching for the tree how Kol would pull me out of my studies and take me on walks to clear my head. Now the memory only made me sigh and want to get back to work, I couldn't fail him. I wouldn't fail him. I closed my eyes and breathed in and out "You know, the Bonnie I knew wouldn't let a few setbacks kill her spirit" I looked back at Caroline who'd been watching me with sad eyes. I hadn't been purposefully avoiding her I just hadn't found the time in between helping Kol and helping Elena "I'm not. I just needed a minute, staring at the same sort of old pages translating all kinds old languages makes my head hurt after a while" she nodded understandingly sitting next to me laying her head on my shoulder "I'm surprised Eli let you in, he's been very anti-team Salvatore since they killed Kol" she chuckled "He called me, he's worried about you, Rebekah apparently is out and he wanted someone to sit with you. That reminds me since when are you and Rebekah all buddy buddy" I gave her a look that told her she knew the answer to that already to which she just nodded and whispered something to herself.

"The real question is... how come Klaus hasn't come after them with a master plan of torture and pain" I shrugged "Apparently he up and left a while ago, not long after Elena ended up in the hospital. I don't know what his game is right now but I'm pretty sure he's not thinking about them" she seemed shocked and shook her head a little and looked away "I'm surprised honestly. The Klaus we knew would never miss an opportunity to torture his enemies. Especially if they tried to kill him and managed to kill his brother" I nodded to myself thinking about it but the more I did, the more it became clear that somehow in the short time since we've been back from the other time, he's not the same Klaus. Elena changed him. I don't know how she does it but she made him different. I felt it before my phone rang I knew something had happened a weight in my chest and I knew something in connection to my magic had occurred so when my phone rang and I saw Esther's name I didn't hesitate picking up.

"She's awake-" I hung up and rushed over to the hospital faster than I knew my body could ever take me. I was breathing heavy but it didn't matter because she was awake. My best friend was alive and well and I hadn't failed her completely, Rebekah trailed behind me and I smiled holding her hand as we walked into her room. Jeremy still hadn't left her side and it had gotten easier to see him around. Knowing how much he loved Elena and what he was probably going through watching over her I could get passed the things that happened before. I smiled wide when I saw her she did the same reaching out for me and holding me tight. I couldn't control the wave of emotion I felt. It flooded my veins so sharply I gasped at how I missed her. How having her around centered me. I dug my fingers in her shirt even I knew I shouldn't and I buried my face in her hair. I was just happy to have her and I concealed my small sobs as best I could while I held her to me "It's ok Bon. I'm still here" she whispered rubbing my back and holding onto me just as desperately as I held onto her. She rubbed my arms and I took that as a cue to let go. I backed up and she wiped my tears her own falling down her cheeks carelessly.

"We got each other till it's over" she said squeezing my hand glancing over at Rebekah who gave her a small nod "I missed you so much" she said to me smiling a bit, as I watched her talk about being back with Jeremy I could see the light wasn't reaching her eyes the same. In fact the more I looked the less I could see she looked like herself. Her skin was pale and she face slightly sunken in. It was like someone took a straw and sucked out everything Elena. Her brown hair was ashy brown instead of it's vibrant chestnut the more I looked the sadder I felt for her. Klaus. He did this. I wondered if this is how she would've looked when she found out he'd gone after Katherine if she hadn't been a vampire. I wonder if his betrayals sink in that deep or if this one was a special circumstance. It felt different just like me losing Kol feels different. Maybe it's because there's no going back in this time, this is the timeline and there is no changing it back. No more do overs everything is so much more final here. I knew she must feel that just looking at her I knew she did and I felt as her friend she needed me now more than ever.

"Bon I see that look in your eye, I'm fine don't start mama bearing me" she said earning a snort from Caroline "I love you Lena but you know you're lying" she sat next to her and pushed some hair out of her face "It's ok we got you" she said as Jeremy grabbed her hand and Rebekah put a hand on her shoulder. I could see it then her crack. She breathed in shakily and a few more tears fell and she laid her head on Caroline crying her eyes out "He left me" she whispered only once, into silence as she clutched her chest, I knew how her heart must ache I felt that just as strongly and to see her cry like this made me burn. Of all the things he'd done this one hurt her most and it hurt me to see her like this. Granted the only people who understood were the girls Jeremy didn't but he still rubbed her hand lovingly and offered himself as a steady shoulder to cry on. I smiled happy that she had him still. We all just sat there letting her cry when Stefan walked in looking over at Elena who wiped her face clean of the tears moments before. He looked at us, almost pleading for a moment alone and Caroline and Rebekah both dragged me out so he could have it. Jeremy left no question and I rolled my eyes at the girls for still holding out hope that she and Stefan would work it out.

They just didn't understand. I went outside needing air and I looked across the street to see Klaus staring in what I knew was her window. I breathed in deep and reigned in my rising temper walking, well stomping over to him "So. Come just to watch her cry. Low, even for you" he cut his eyes at me but said nothing, I could see the wear leaving her had on him. Yet I knew he wasn't here to fix that so I didn't care "Have care how you speak to me right now witch" he said in a tired voice, I didn't care much to argue only to know why "Why come here?" I said ignoring his last comment "I had to know she was ok" he whispered more to himself than to me before turning away "She's not ok. She's in pieces because she lo- she cares about you so much and you just up and left her like that didn't matter" he rolled his eyes "God you act as if she loves me" I growled and pushed him "God! How thick must you be!? She does love you you dumbass more than anything in the world and yet you can't pull it out of you to say the same you don't deserve her and you never did" he shook his head "Don't lie to me. She couldn't love a man who's done all I have and only been with for a short time. I don't understand either of you, so loose with such a word, you too, telling me you loved my brother when you never knew him" I growled and made a split second decision.

Was it smart? No. Did I regret it? No.

I grabbed his head and I showed him what I did Rebekah, all the moments that he needed to see, every last I love you he said, every last kiss I saw, all of it. He stumbled back and stared into space in shock. It was like I shook up his whole world and he was gaining his footing again. Once he seemed to correct himself he gripped me up "WHAT HAVE YOU DONE? WHAT WAS THAT?" I flinched as he yelled in my face "The truth. She's had 800 years to love you Klaus. And even though yes we left that time we came to she came back to be with you." he seemed to shake with rage and I didn't know who he was really mad at. Us or himself. He was about to scream some more when a voice rang out and we both turned to see a weak Elena leaning on Stefan for support "Klaus!" she shouted making him unconsciously let me go "Klaus." she spoke again as if she wanted to say more with it the 2nd time. I knew with everything I'd shown him that he saw her differently now and I hoped seeing her this way now would cause him pain. She went to speak again and she took a small step forward but he disappeared and left us 3 to stare after the space he'd been in shock.