Back in middle school I was given a medication for my ADHD that had a side effect of depression. Unfortunately we did not know it was because of the medication so it had already taken it's toll.
My confidence was low, I allowed people to take advantage and walk all over me. I felt like I had no voice. I stayed quiet, lost friends because I was not dressing like other girls, I got bullied because...well...it was middle school. I was in a bad place. Breakdowns happened randomly, my parents did the best they could but I was always sad and none of us understood why.
My brother, one day, picked up my medication and looked at the name. He told us the side effect so we quickly changed it as I entered my freshman year in high school. Do not get me wrong, it is not like I instantly became happier or changed how I was. I had friends that helped me smile and showed me that I was loved. I was still soft spoken and I still had issues but I was getting there.
My low self esteem was raised by close friends, my family, and an amazing coach who kept reminding me I was stronger than I thought when I felt like a failure. I will forever be thankful for the things these people helped me with, even if they did not know.
Sorry for the ramble. I do not want any pity, I love that my past has shaped me into who I am today. Every tear, every heartbreak, and every passionate moment I ever felt on my journey so far has been poured into the pages of my old composition book. Every poem has a story behind it.
I don't know if anyone will actually read all this. Regardless, thank you for reading, whoever you are. I hope you enjoy, or at least if you find yourself in a rough spot I hope my words can somehow get to you and help you in someway.
I love you. You are not alone <3
Would also love to hear yalls stories as well, please leave a comment if you enjoyed any of my works or relate! Thanks!
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PoesiaI've been writing since middle school as a way to convey how I felt. I've kept these in an old composition book that I still keep by me about 10 years later. I suppose it's time to share and hope maybe it will help someone out there.
