opposites attract ~ a kageyama tobio fanfic

confess pt 2.

wow. i felt dumb.

did i seriously just let it slip that i noticed her in the music room? how stupid could i be. this was bad. getting this involved with her. bad. she probably thought i was so weird. she probably thought i was a stalker. i didn't even understand why i felt this way for her, i just didn't want to deal with it.

when we reached a crossroad, takagi-san pointed to the right. "i'm this way." i was startled by her sudden voice. "ah. i'm going this way," and pointed to the left.

i wondered if i should offer to walk her back to her house. but then she'd think i was interested in her. and... for some reason, that scared me. what did i even feel towards her? why was it so hard for me to figure out?

i felt even more stupid.

"etto..." i was snapped back from my thoughts, looking at the short girl in front of me. "thanks for walking home with me. i really appreciate it, since i usually feel a bit uneasy coming home myself at night." she looked down at her shoes, and i saw the grip on her school bag tighten.

i scratched the back of my head, looking behind her at the setting sun that painted the sky oranges and pinks. "it's no problem. i..." my voice trailed off and i debated whether or not i should say it. then looked straight into her eyes. "i enjoyed walking home with you. i enjoyed being... with... you..." my voice faltered at the end, growing so quiet i felt her lean in just the tiniest to catch my words, causing my face to grow pink again.

when i heard his words, the emotions i'd been suppressing finally affected my physical body. i stumbled back, covering my face with a hand and turning my head to the floor so he couldn't catch the blush creeping onto my face.

yeah so we were just both standing there, avoiding eye contact.

i seriously doubt i had the slightest clue what i was feeling. but i knew one thing.

he gave me a rush i'd never felt before. i physically felt the affects he had on me. he brought onto me a 'feeling' i was so extremely foreign to. but i think, i think, i liked it.

i wanted more of this feeling.

so i did something i knew i'd either regret immensely or... could bring something more.

"k-kageyama-kun." i said, my hands were suddenly in fists and i forced my head to snap up and look him straight on. his face was still fading pink as he met my gaze. "i have a performance at the bunkamura orchard hall in tokyo this saturday night." i slightly noticed how my voice was a bit too loud, not the even and cool one i normally used and was used to.

so i cleared my throat and loosened my tight muscles. my face was deadpanned but i could still feel the heat radiating off of me. "i... would like it a lot if you could come. just to support me. but of course, if you have something important, i would never want it to seem like i'm forcing it onto you." i added the last part almost instinctively, my polite skills from talking to adults kicking in, making me inwardly cringe. why was i so awkward?

he just looked at me with a surprised face. staring at me for a few seconds before really processing my strange request. "oh. that's... kind of sudden. we have a volleyball game this saturday-" i flinched, immediately cutting him off. "then it's fine! you don't have to come then. sorry, i was being weird." i laughed nervously. "you don't-"

"but i'll make time. it's at night right? i can make it." he said firmly. i looked at him with wide eyes.

he'd make time... for me?

"um. wow. thank you." i said, surprised. "it starts at 7:30pm." a part of me wanted to argue back, saying he really didn't have to come if he couldn't make it. i didn't want him to push himself for me.