Help me. (C.D)

3.

Current day: August 1, 2015
"Dear journal,
I haven't stopped thinking about that boy, the one at the mall. It's like he is just stuck in my mind. And there is nothing I can do to get him out, but on a more serious note, I went to dr. Michael (he's my doctor) and its official, I'm depressed. Mom was heart broken. But she's going to have to get over it, I did, also today is the day I'm going back to the hell hole they call school."
As I closed my journal, I examined what I was wearing, I was wearing skinny jeans, and a long black shirt, also tied to my waist was a red and a darkish blue flannel, for shoes, I had on grey flats.
My hair was In a French braid last night, so I just left it in. My hair ended up being wavy.
My makeup was powderd foundation, and a light smokey eye, with some mascara to finish it off.
I had started to look over my schedule I had gotten In the mail last night.
Ab1. Morris, history;room 213.
A2. P.E, Jenkins;room gymnasium.
Ab3. Math, Matthews;room 123.
And so on.
I'm already dreading the day that awaits me.
---skip car ride---
As I was walking to my locker, I was being called the names I had soon forgotten over the The summer break. But I did not for get freaky Blake. Now that is a name I will never forget.
As soon as I got to my locker I opened it. I felt someone staring at the back of my head, I literally could feel their eyes burning through my skull.
I turned around slowly and, there he was. The kid from the mall. I didn't realize how long I'd been staring, and he started making his way over to me.
"Damn. " I breathed out. I really didn't want to talk to anyone right now. So I just ignored that he was walking towards me.
"Hey, you're the girl I bumped into at the mall!" He said chuckling.
"Yeah, hey. Sorry about that by the way." I said while looking down.
"Hey, it's all good! What's your name by the wa-" he had gotten cut off by someone yelling freaky Blake. Great.
"Where they talking to you?" He asked while looking back to see who it was.
"Umm, no." I said getting nervous.
"Anyways, my names Cameron Dallas." He said with a cheeky grin.
"I'm Blake Amber."
"Well nice to meet you Blake." He said with a smile.
As he was about to say something else, he was soon cut off by the 5 minute bell.
"I uh, have to get to class." I said while closing my locker, and scurrying off to my 1st period. Hopefully he wasn't in that class.
--skip through the school day.--
The bell had rung signaling that the first day was over. Every one practically ran out of class.
I waited till everyone was down being hooligans, so I could leave the school without getting a broken leg.
As I was walking down the 200 hall, to my locker I saw Cameron, and his group of friends. Dang they were all pretty much goddess.
We made very awkward eye contact, and he had said something to his group and jogged towards me.
"Hey Blakey!"
"Hi." I simply said.
"You wanna ride home?"
"No, it's okay my mom is probably waiting for me." Lie. My mom is a nurse, so she doesn't get home till late.
"Oh c'mon! Please.." He said while putting his bottom lip out.
When he did that, I broke a small smile. I haven't smiled in ages, and it felt really good.
"Sure, I guess."
"Okay, so you want to meet my friends first?"
UGH. I didn't want to be rude so I said yes.
"Yeah."
As we started walking towards them, I had noticed one. He looked really familiar.
"Blake, I'd like you to meet, Taylor, Nash, Matt, Shawn, Hayes, JJ, and Jack Glinsky." Cam said with a smile.
They all said, hello and nice to meet you. I guess none of them really knew who I was, by that I mean, how I'm practically a punching bag, and everyone just throws me around.
"Alright, you ready to go Blake?"
"Yeah." I said wanting to just get out of this place.
"Alright boys, I'll catch Ya later!" He yelled while we were walking to what I'm guessing was his car.
I gave him the address to my house before we got in the car, he opened the door for me, and jogged to the other side of the car.
This feeling, it just felt.. Different.
"So, what are your hobbies?" He asked while trying to make conversation.
"Umm, reading, swimming, volleyball... And I guess that's pretty much it." My hobbies aren't technically like normal girls. But I guess that's what makes me, me..
"OHH, snap we got a smarty and an athletic girly over here!" He said while attempting to be a girl. It didn't really work out.
"Well, Mr. Dallas, what are your hobbies?"
"Umm, I love acting, and making YouTube videos, that's it."
"Oh cool." I said looking at my lap.
"Are you shy?"
"Excuse me?"
"Well your very... How do I put it?" He asked. I know he didn't want to sound rude, but there really is no other way to put it then, antisocial.
"Antisocial?" I asked trying to help him.
"No, not li-" I cut him off.
"It's okay Cameron, I don't mind."
It was silent the rest of the way home.
As we pulled up to my house, I was about to open the door so I could leave, but he grabbed my arm.
"I know this might be really early to ask you this but, can I get your number?" He asked with hopeful eyes.
"Uhh, sure I guess.."
After I gave him my number, I ran up to my door, I got out my key, and unlocked it.
"MOMMA?!" I asked with sadness in my voice. There was no answer. I miss my mom. Yes I see her. But more like once a week. It's hard. Especially since I need her more then ever right now.
I put my bag down on the table and ran up to my room.
I jumped in comfy clothing, and got out my homework.
I had gotten a text from Cam....
Random number: "hey Blake its Cameron.."
Me: "oh hey."
Cameron: "we should hang sometime, you down?"
I know he might be a nice boy, but I've ran into boys like him, they build up your confidence, and tear you down.
The way I look at loving someone, it's almost like trying to hold the sun and not getting burned. It's impossible. I was very hesitant weather or not to say no, but I finally gave in.
Me: " I guess. When?"
Cameron: "this weekend?"
Me: "yeah. I'll text you later. I'm going to bed."
Cameron: "goodnight Blake, sweet dreams:)"
I smiled to myself, I could finally fall asleep that night knowing someone, in a really long time, might just actually care for me and my feelings.
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IM SORRY!!!!!
I know I promised another chapter a REALLY LONG time ago😿 but hey, I UPDATED!!!!! Sorry guys I was at my parent teacher conferences, and had the whole chapter in my head, so I jogged every thing down faster then you could say mayonnaise on cats😹 if you got that, LETS BE BEST FRIENDS!❤️
Anyway, hope you liked the chapter, sorry if there are spelling errors!
Love Ya'll💕
-Kenn