Help me. (C.D)

2.

Current day: July 20, 2015
"Dear journal,
School starts, on Tuesday. I don't have much friends. It doesn't really hurt me anymore, I guess. The only reason people don't talk to me, is that they think I'm weird.
On a better note, I'm going to Lucy again. She helps me get through a lot."
As I was done, I walked out of my room and I sat on the chair next to my mom.
"You ready to go Blakey?" My mother asked while looking at mail.
"Yeah." I said bluntly.
"Alright, let's go!"
And with that we left.
******skip car ride again.******
(And just a heads up, she won't be there long😉)
"How are you today Blake?" Lucy asked.
"I'm getting better. But I need to ask you something." I asked kinda scared of the outcomes of this answer.
"What is it?"
"What are some signs of depression?" I asked while biting my lip.
"Well, feeling lonely, appetite or weight changes,sleeping habits change, etc...Blake, why would you ask that question?"
"I think, umm- I'm depressed."
"Are you sure Blake?" She asked with a questionable face.
"I'm most certainly positive."
"You're going to have to ask your doctor about that Blake. Why do you think this?"
"I feel alone. Like no one ever cares about what I do, let alone how I feel."
"Blake that's not true."
"Can we stop the session? I'm sorry, I just don't feel to good."
"Yes, Blake I need to inform your mother, About our talk."
"No please don't. I'd rather talk to her about this situation."
"Alright. Goodbye Blake." Lucy said while once again opening the door so I can leave.
--------once again skipping car ride---------
The car ride home was silent. I don't know how to act around my mom, let alone myself. I don't know how to feel, do I stop my life completely? Or do I keep going.
All these questions raced back and forth, and they never stopped.
I didn't get any sleep that night.
-next morning-
As I sat in my bed staring at the wall, I started to remember that school starts 2 days from now.
I was interrupted, when my mother walked in.
"Hey honey, I was thinking since school starts in 2 days, why not give you some money, and you can go shopping!"
I do need some clothes, but I didn't want any social activity today. But I want to make her happy.
"Yeah, sure I guess." I said trying to pull off the best smile I could.
As I said this, she handed me money. 200 dollars.
"Mom, I can't take this much! Here." I said trying to give the money back to her.
But instead of taking the money, she just smiled, waved and left.
I have 2 options, 1. I could stay home, in my bed ALL DAY w/ Netflix. Option 2. Go and just make her happy.
I'll do option 2.
I quickly jumped in the shower, after the shower I wrapped my hair in a towel and walked to my closet,
And picked out, (picture above, to lazy to explain it😂)
Just put my hair in a really crapy bun.
I ran down stairs grabbed my keys and said goodbye to my mom.
---skipped car ride-----
As I was walking into Pacsun, I ran into a person. I looked up into a pair of brown eyes.
"Sorry I umm didn't see you there." I looked down embarrassed.
"Don't worry, I sure as hell saw you." As he said that he smirked and joined his group of friends.
Damn.
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