Unfinished Love

Chapter 6 - Girls Will Be Girls

Ty's Point of View

Esme told me earlier that she would be having some friends over and I didn't really feel like seeing the guys today so I just went upto my room and turned on the laptop and opened up a movie. Half way through I fell asleep. When I got back up it was already 6:30 so I got up to see what Ella and her friends were upto. I tiptoe to her room door where I heard laughter followed by silence and whispers.

I leaned against the wall to hear what they were saying "No we haven't had sex yet" Esme said sounding bummed.

I step forward and lean against the door frame "and I don't plan on having sex with you Esme. Ever." I dramatically pause leaving their thoughts to ponder for a little before starting again. "I never plan on having sex with you because I plan on making love to you. Never will I ever have sex with you because sex is temporary. And my love for you is anything but temporary."

"Awwwwwe" her friends all say in sync.

She gets off of her bed and runs towards the door, leaping into my arms. I pick her up and she wraps her legs around me and kisses me. I walk out of the room and put her down on the ground. "You are the best boyfriend ever" she seductively whisphers, trailing her finger down my chest.

"Oh? Is that so?" I tease before pressing my lips against hers and pushing her up against the wall making her moan.

"Get a room!" One of the girls called from her room

"If we get a room she isn't coming back for a while." I chuckled.

"Ew Ty, can you just let her come back" I looked at Esme and nodded.

"Oooo baby, don't stop. Esme!" I moan.

"Mhmm you like that huh?" She teased. I wrap my arm around her and we walk into the room

"Oh Esme, the things you do to me!" I groan making the girls giggle.

"Ugh really Ty?" One of the girls said throwing a pillow at me.

I caught it and threw it back at her " alright, alright I'm going." I put my hands up surrendering. I turn my back to the girls and mouth "I'm going for a run, text me if you need anything." I kiss the top of her head and turn around to see the girls, "See you ladies later."

I jog down the stairs and out the front door, just pulling it shut after me. I press play on my music before slipping my phone into my pocket and my earphones into my ears. It's so hard to stop myself from running sometimes but I've learned to control it. Instead of running from a problem, I run to rethink what I did or to find a solution.

Esme's right, I haven't had sex with her, mostly because I just don't do sex anymore. But I haven't made love to her either. If she asks me for a reason what am I supposed to say? If I don't give her a valid reason, she'll think that theres something wrong with her, which there's not. I pick up the pace from a light jog to run. I mean when I think about it, the reason why I haven't been sexual with her is because I don't want to hurt her and I don't mean physically.

My hearts pounding and my head can't keep up so instead my feet speed up. What if it triggers memories from her first time? What if I don't live upto her expectations? What if I'm not good enough? I'm not good enough, not for her. "I'm not good enough!" I shout to the sky. My earphones are still in when I see bright white lights shining at me. Before I could figure out that they were headlights I heard a loud horn.

My body thrusted backwards and then crashed into the ground. A rush of pain shot up my back and I yelped. I heard cardoors slam shut and a startled voice started speaking. "Oh my lord! Are you okay?" He shouted. As I blinked it seemed like coloured lights flashed before me. "Should I call 911?" He asked, panicking.