she wanted to be happy
yet she's scared of what it takes to be
because what if the price
of happiness was too high?
what if after the laughters and smiles
will be misery and cries?
what if having too much happiness
could give you too much loneliness?
so she kept on ruining good things
through pessimism and overthinking.
then, everything became an irony.
she wants to be happy.
but she refused to be happy.
she doesn't want to be lonely
yet she chose to be lonely.
