The Deathly love

Tears of sorrow

                                Draco's POV
I sat at the table hearing the words that flew out of Snapes mouth like golden ribbons. I had my hands holding up my head. I felt lonely with Lillian gone, last night I got two hours of sleep because I couldn't stop myself from crying, I felt horrible for letting her die like that I know I had no choice but I still felt terrible. I heard every person from every year talking and whispering about Lillian once snape was done speaking which made me feel even worse. I noticed the golden trio looking at me I tilted my head up and looked at them. I would give them a snarl but I had no more energy left.
Hermione looked away and kept talking to the two boys. Tears started to blur my eyes but I quickly blinked them out so no one could see my pain. Suddenly breakfast was over and I quickly noticed I didn't eat anything but I could care less at this point. Class flashed by quick and I was walking in the common room making my way to my dorm. When Blaise came up to me "hey man you don't look so good" he greeted me. I looked up from my feet in into his eyes " of course I'm not looking good Lillian just DIED!!! I shouted. Blaise blinked at me fiercely and wrapped his arms around me  into a hug.
I instantly felt bad for yelling but the words sorry couldn't escape my mouth.
"It's ok man I know it's hard" Blaise comforted me, I shacked out of his arms and said "no it's not ok I could've done something" "man you had no choice"Blaise told me. I looked at him and nodded "your right,I just miss her" a tear rolled down my face .
"I can spend the night in your room if you need someone" Blaise knew if I was alone I would do something stupid. "Yeah I think that would be good" I told him. He nodded and said let me get my stuff out of my room"  "ok".  I walked in my dorm and sat on my bed and put my knees to my head. I started to sob I couldn't take my mind off of her she was perfect, she seemed like the only good thing in my life at the time and I lost that. Blaise walked in dropped his stuff and quickly ran up to me.
He sat by me and put his arm around my shoulders "you'll be ok buddy she's watching over you I bet" thinking of her watching over me made me cry harder. "Oh no did I make it worse I'm sorry" I tried to say no but I just couldn't. I was sobbing to hard I could barely breathe. I was starting to get a panic attack, which Lillian usually helped me with. Blaise hugged me and said "woah calm down it will be fine it'll be fine" I nodded and started to slowly calm down.
Blaise told me it was a good idea to get a hot shower and drink a glass of water since I haven't eaten or drank anything all day. I nodded, grabbed my stuff and walked into the bathroom. I undressed and walked into the shower. The steam filled the air as I drenched conditioner in my bleach blonde hair. I felt way better after the shower. I stepped out of the wet shower dripping with the clear water. I dried myself off and put on a pair of grey sweatpants and a soft dark green sweatshirt on.
I walked out of the bathroom and saw Blaise chilling on my bed reading a book. I went over to him and sat by him "how you doing man?" He asked. "I feel better now" I said "great, you should get a glass of water I'll get one for you" I nodded and he walked out to get the glass of water. I laid back thinking about Lillian. I thought of how beautiful she truly was. her eyes would glisten in the light, her smile was so bright and cheery you couldn't get enough of it, her lips were plump and a gorgeous shade of pink. A tear rolled down my cheek of the thought of her. I should've told her how I felt earlier. Another tear rolled down my cheek as Blaise walked in he handed me the glass of water. "Drink it" he demanded.
I drank the glass quick while Blaise was sitting in the bed beside me. I handed him the cup, he got up and placed it on my desk. "You sure you don't need anything to eat?" Blaise asked.
I said "maybe I'll eat a little something" Blaise nodded and told me " I'll get a little snack it'll be fast" "ok" I answered and he walked out once again. I just closed my eyes and laid back again until he returned. When he came back he gave me a sandwich. "There you go bud" I thanked him and quickly engulfed the sandwich. After a little while of talking we decided to go to bed. I fell asleep of the thought of Lillian.