7.13.19
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Jihoon heaved out a heavy sigh then sucked in another breath. His heart was pounding and his head was like going in to places. He wasn't sure whether to sit back or stand up and just walk away.
He's currently at their favorite spot, in their favorite place, and Seungcheol called him out to talk.
He remembered how cold his voice were and how serious it was when he asked him out. A chill run down his spine while remembering that and he had to literally shake his body to shake of the nervousness building inside him.
"Hey," Jihoon literally jumped after hearing his cold low voice. His eyes widen while looking at him and tried real hard to smile at him.
"Were you waiting for too long?" Seungcheol asked, motioning for him to sit down. Jihoon just shakes his head then both of them sat down properly, facing each other.
The surroundings suddenly became silent, and all that Jihoon could hear was his hard breathing and his extreme heartbeat. The heat was occupying his head as nervousness occupied his mind, and it took just a fake cough from Seungcheol to bring him back to sanity. That powerful human..
"O-Oh.. What was that you wanted to talk about?" Jihoon asked, voice a little shaky.
Who wouldn't feel nervous when they were just happy the other days and then all of a sudden he will sound cold and distant like all the world's burden has been passed down to him overnight.
He knew what will happen next after he saw Seungcheol sigh. He took something from his jacket and placed it on top of the table. Jihoon instantly cried after seeing what it was.
"What does this mean..?" Jihoon asked, his heart still denying what his mind understood. His gaze was locked at the box of their promise ring where Seungcheol's ring was placed.
"I need a break or a rest," Seungcheol said as if everything that was happening was just something easy to process.
"What do you mean...?" Jihoon asked, his gaze darting to Seungcheol's cold eyes.
"I need to take a rest from all this things that's been happening around me. I can't handle all this shits in one go. I need rest because I'm human too," Seungcheol explained, his voice becoming poisonous and hard with each words he spit out.
Jihoon just looked at him, eyes full of misery while he watch how the love of his life changed drastically overnight. He knew that he was feeling exhausted. He knew that he might ask for this rest. And he knew that it wasn't about them that he's asking for something so extravagant like this.
Jihoon breathed heavily, trying to control the sobs before finally speaking. "H-How long do you need?" he asked softly.
"Maybe weeks...or months... I'll be away and go somewhere..." Seungcheol answered, he was breathing heavily while watching Jihoon.
Jihoon clenched his teeth and closed his eyes. Fuck it! He clearly knew that he wouldn't last even just a day without him, and now he's asking for weeks? and worst months?! This is absurd.. Jihoon thinks that everything he's asking right now is absurd..
He wasn't at fault with any of those shits but why does he have to be the one suffering..? Why does it have to be him to take all the heartbreaking part and not those who hurt him...? This is just unfair... Fucking unfair...
"Ji--" Seungcheol was about to speak again when Jihoon cut hum off.
"What about me? What will happen to me? Do you expect me to be fine or okay with this request? To be productive and all without you?" Jihoon could feel how his heart was literally breaking, how his heart was shattering into pieces.
"You can do anything without me. It's just like the life you had before I came in the picture," Seungcheol answered as if that was the brightest idea anyone could think of.
"That's stupid thinking. You won't be able to function properly after some people invade and barge in to your life.. You won't be able to live like before, especially when you've experienced how amazing life can be when they came in..." Jihoon answered, his eyes becoming red and swollen with all the crying he's been doing for the past few minutes. "People shouldn't barge in other people's lives if they'll just do what they want and not actually think of what will happen to the other party," Jihoon continued.
He almost choked when he heaved out a sigh because of the tears that keeps welling up his eyes. He removed the ring from his ring finger then placed it inside the box.
"Do whatever you want and keep that. I'll wear it again when you come back," Jihoon said, his voice cold but sad.
Seungcheol was rendered speechless and can only watch his every move. From this point on, he wasn't sure of what he wanted.. or what he needed.
Jihoon stood up as he wipes his tears. He was clenching his jaw the whole time he was walking out of that café. He wasn't even minding if they were looking at him and pitying him or whatever. All he wanted right now is a peaceful place or a drink.
He didn't use his car and just walk and walk and walk while crying, not even minding wherever his feet will bring him.
