25. Better Than I

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Both Nikolaj and Gwendoline started walking towards Giles' room. He simply held out a hand to Gwen, giving Nik a pointed look. "Alone, if that's alright."

Nik glanced between the two of them, then gave a slight nod. He found his card key and let himself in wordlessly. He felt the need to bite back a comment. Why? Gwen and Giles had been together before you even met her. You've no need to feel jealous. She willingly chose to be with you, y'know. And she's choosing to be with you, still, now instead of him. You're a lucky bastard. Should we feel bad for Giles? Yes. No. Maybe...

Gwen had taken Giles' hand and followed him into his room. "Should I be sitting down for this?

Giles pulled his suitcase back inside, letting the door close behind them. His brows furrowed for a moment. "I don't think so. We would have had this conversation back home, regardless. This only gives you more time to think."

They both took a seat at the foot of the bed. God, this is oddly tense, Gwen thought. It hadn't been this way since they discussed an open relationship the very first time. She still wasn't even over the thought of not being together with him anymore... How had she acted so at ease when she was with Nikolaj today? Giles had hardly even crossed her mind.

"Well, we had very briefly discussed separating for good reason, you and Nik are about to start a whole new... portion of your life. But we hadn't discussed the living situation."

"Oh..." She sighed softly in relief. "That's what you were so worried about? Giles, if you want to move out-"

He interjected. "I want the flat."

Oh. She let the silence hang between them for a moment, thinking, before nodding. "It was yours to begin with. I suppose I couldn't possibly ask to keep it." She nodded again, more surely this time. "Nikolaj would want to pick out a new place, I'm sure."

Giles smiled sadly at her. "If you'd really like that old place, it's yours. I couldn't tell you no."

She huffed out a laugh. "Yes, you could. You'd just be far too nice about it, I'd want to give it back. No, this will be good. I haven't been house hunting before."

"There's a first time for everything. Just make sure it has a nice room for a nursery."

She feigned a vomiting noise. "How cliche of you. There's a first time for everything. Ugh." She nudged him with her shoulder, smiling. "What about you and Jonathan. You think he'll move in?"

"Not for quite some time, but eventually." He shrugged. "Maybe." A moment of pause. "Do you really think you two are going to have a baby?"

Gwen pursed her lips, not particularly in an angry manner. "I don't know. I still need to discuss with my doctors when we, well... I get back home. If it happens it happens."

He mocked her vomiting noise. "How cliche of you."

She leaned into him, rolling her eyes with a gentle smile. "Shut up."

Now I have to pack all my things. What if he wants to keep the dresses he made? If he keeps something I want I can at least borrow it, right? Will he make me pack alone? Will Nik want to help? I don't think I want him to... everything in that house is so personal. You fucked him on your bed- no, Giles' bed, that he shared with you. We're horrible, you know that, right? Remember when his mother caught you? I try to forget.

Giles' voice pulled her from her thoughts. "Gwen?"

She shook herself a little and sat up straight. "Apologies, just a little lost in thought. I'll start packing as soon as I get back home."

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