Tracing The Stars H.S AU

Chapter 21-Collision

Blairs POV

At first, I was in denial that Harry was really gone. I searched his house, which took me so long because of how big it was. I ended up making my way back to the kitchen to get myself a glass of water because of how dry my throat was, but then I ended up on the kitchen floor crying with Baxter by my side.

At this point, I wasn't sure what to do, but crying seemed like the best option for now.

Why did he leave?

I think I said too much. I didn't mean for it to come out so abruptly. Telling the story often felt like I was reliving every moment of what happened.

I wanted to be angry at him...I really did.

I was too tired to be angry at him right now. I feel stupid. Stupid for getting this close to a guy, only for him to make me feel fragile. Where did I go wrong? Harry seemed to care. I thought this time around, falling for a guy would be different.

And it was.

Falling for Harry at first was like learning how to fall in love with myself again. I'm not sure if that is healthy, but it's true.

I'm tired of men.

I haven't decided what I was going to do, but crying out on Harry's kitchen floor, next to his dog wasn't the worst thing that happened today.

I could go home, but I would have to call an uber, and I have been trying to save every cent possible. I could ask Megan for a lift, but she was most likely drunk at a party, and I don't want to bother her.

"Blair?"

I snapped my head up to the voice, and I first thought it was Harry, but it was Gabe.

"Woah. Holy shit, are you okay?"

I wipe the tears from my face. "Yeah, I'm fine." I pull myself off the  kitchen floor, smoothing out my shirt. "I'm going to leave, sorry."

"Don't apologize. Where is Harry?" Gabe asked.

"I'm not sure."

He gives me a look of uncertainty. "I thought you guys were spending the night together."

I shake my head, sniffling. "I thought so too, but he is gone."

Gabe is more than confused, and I don't really blame him. I open my mouth to tell him that I would call an uber to leave, but more tears end up falling down my cheeks.

"Shit Blair." Gabe walks up to me, about to hug me and I unintentionally flinch away, taking a few steps back.

"Woah. Blair, are you okay? It's just me, alright. Do you want to sit down?"

I don't answer right away. Gabe hesitantly grabs my hand and leads me to sit down on the couch.

"You seem anxious." He points out.

"Yeah, I had a rough night."

"Here." He reaches for in his pocket and pulls out a vape. "Don't worry. It's THC. None of that nicotine shit. "I had a rough day too. I came here to get away from my Dad. A little THC helps with everyone's problems."

I mean, he wasn't wrong. A little THC does help with everyone's problems.  If I got a little high, it would be a good distraction from what happened tonight. I also haven't smoked in a while either, so the high would be nice.

I put my lips to the tip of the vape, inhaling. "Your Dad?"

"Yeah. He showed up at the house today. It was the same old shit though. He bitched at me about my painted nails, then bitched to me about my grades, then yelled at me for not liking his gold digger girlfriend and I just left."