dear ricky,
i was sick again today. its like the pain just never stops. after school i went to the hospital to see if the doctors could help me.
they gave me stronger medicine for the headaches. they also did some tests and found that i was at high risk for having a heart attack, so they put me on blood thinners. more pills to take every morning, afternoon, and night. yay.
i hate keeping this from you; i hate sneaking off before lunch to swallow pills. i hate missing school and not being able to tell you why. i hate canceling on our weekend plans.
but it would be worse if you knew. then you would feel terrible and i dont want to make you unhappy. i want you to have less worries, not more. i dont need you to worry about me so much. i wont let you. its for the best of you dont know, okay?
so when im gone and youre reading things, i know you will think you should have known. you should have noticed something was up. but thats not true, alright? theres no way you would have. im not going to allow it. dont feel bad. okay?
love always, nini
YOU ARE READING
dear ricky
Fanfictiona collection of letters written by nini salazar roberts to ricky bowen after finding out she has 2 months to live.
