Complicated- Ciarán McDonald

h a l l o w e e n (*TW*)

Saturday October 19th 3:45PM

"You're going roselyn, that's final." My dad was bow lecturing me about not wanting to go to california for the weekend and no matter how badly I tried to get my reasons for not wanting to go but he always found a way to put them aside and make them seem invalid. "I'm staying" I argued back. "If you stay you're getting the fuck out of my house" he yelled. "Thank fucking god. You treat me like I'm some piece of plastic dad I'm more than happy to get the hell out of this house." I screamed. "I just want my fucking daughter back bot this monster that's taken over her" he yelled matching my tone. "I'm almost 18 years old dad, I'm not 8 anymore I'm growing up and becoming a human being. What were you some perfect fucking kid when you were 17? You know you should spend less time screaming at me and spend more asking how I'm doing." I said as tears took over my eyes. "Ro-" "im not going. Its too hard right now." I said in a whisper as I went in my bedroom and locked myself in. I put a random vinyl in and called to let tavia know that's she could come over to get ready.

Tavia arrived and we did our makeup while listening to music. Halfway through doing my eyeliner I heard my phone ring. "Can you get that for me?" I asked her as I continued my makeup. "Yo we're a bit busy right now ci" tavia said as she answered the facetime. "Wheres ro?" Ciaŕan asked. Tavia walked over to my vanity and sat the phone down. "hi" I said giving him a shy wave. He flashed his beautiful smile to me and I couldn't help but blush. "Just so you know, you're the only reason I'm going to this lame ass party" he said chuckling softly. "I'm honoured" I said holding my chest.

We finally finished our makeup and changed into our costumes. I gotta say...it doesnt look too bad. We snap a few pictures then I grab my purse and make my way out the door. The whole way there we were blasting paramore and singing along. As we walked through the door our noses filled with the smell of weed, alcohol, and sweaty teenagers. Tavia grabs my hands firmly and brings me over to the boys. ciaran is staring at his phone until I tapped his shoulder, his head shot up and a soft "woah" left his mouth and I chuckled lightly. He scanned my body up and down as I sat beside him.

Ciaran had left me to go god knows where, tavia was no where to be seen, and I was standing alone in the kitchen. I walked upstairs to find a bathroom and found an empty room, or at least I thought it was empty. I hear a stumble in the bathroom causing me to jump. A drunk myles pushes me up against the wall leaving no space for me to get out. "What the fuck let me go" I said moving my arms but he wrapped his around them tightly definitely leaving a bruise. He brought his hand under my dress. "Please stop" I whimpered. He threw me on the bed and took his pants off. At this point I was trying to scream as loud as I could. "Stop myles please, please stop I'm begging" I felt a stinging sensation on the side of my face. He just slapped me. I was sobbing my eyes out, it felt like I was paralyzed. "Please please please" I begged as I cried. Suddenly the door slams open and I feel alive. "What the fuck" ciaran said as he stood there lifeless. "Help me please" I said shaking and crying, crying being an understatement. Ciarans fists swung into Myles' face and he didn't stop until matt pulled him off of the bloody boy. I sat on the bed sobbing as more and more people piled in. Tavia came running towards me crying as well. She held me as tight as she could and I felt like I couldn't breathe, why me? Why anyone?

Ciaran put his hoodie on me and carried me to his car. "How long were you screaming" he asked as a tear fell down his face. I didn't say anything I just leaned my head against the window. We arrived at my house and just as I was about to get out ciaran spoke, "I'm going with you, the last thing you need right now is to be alone" he said taking my hand in his and walking me up the door. I took my makeup off and felt my stomach erupt. I ran to the toilet and threw up, Ciaran lifted my hair as I puked and just held me. "I'll fucking kill him" he said as he stroked my head softly. I cried into his chest and held him tighter. "You need to call you dad and or your brother ro I know you probably don't want to but you have to" he said talking my face in his hands brushing his thumb across my cheek. "C-can you do it" I spoke for the first time after the party. "Of course" he said and quickly got up to get my phone off my nightstand then returned to me. He pressed on the 'dad💕' contact and i felt my heart sink. "Hello" my dad answered. "Hi mr. Glaing its uh its ciaran I'm a friend of Rose's and i- god you have to tell him" he looked over to me and another tear fell from my eye as I grabbed the phone. "Daddy" I said whimpering. "Rose baby what's going on?" He asked concerned. "I-I I got raped" I said as I whimpered. "What" he yelled. "We're on our way back" "no dad celebrate moms birthday I have ciaran" "Lyn stop, stop acting like you're a superhero. You can only take so much and I'm sorry I gave you a hard time, god on so sorry" he said obviously crying. "Please don't cry dad, enjoy your trip and we can talk when you get home I love you so much". I hung up the phone and leaned my head against ciarans shoulder, "let's get you upstairs" he said reaching his hands out for me.

"You can lay with me" I said as he sat on the chair across my room. He walked over and got under my blanket. "I'm gonna protect you" he whispered softly to me as he held me close to him. I brought my head to his chest and felt his warm hands stroke my arm. He planted a soft and gentle kiss on my lips and held me in his warm embrace as I fell asleep.