remember that bullies dont cry

chapter 25 apologizes

"Michael..."I sighed,tucking my hair behind my ear. I pulled the blanket farther up from me.

"Yeah?"he said barley audible looking up at the ceiling.

"What did we just do?"

He let out a nervous laugh and bit his lip "I...I...I think we...fucked?"

There was a silence before I gulped and nodded "I...was afraid you were gonna say that".

"Why? Whats wrong?"

I sighed shaking my head "n-nothing...it's just..."

I didn't know whether I should say it or keep it to myself.

"Say it!"he whined grabbing my naked body and pulling me close.

"Ok ok its just...I didn't want this to happen, I didn't want to forgive you,I didn't want to fuck you...but something I just knew it would happen,like I was gullible enough to do it,I didn't want you to get turned on by my appearance, I just wanted you to know what you were gonna miss...I'm sorry"

I snuggled my head into his bare chest,placing my hand on his chest "I'm sorry,I'm so,sorry"

I thought that michael would turn away,that he would get up,gather his clothes and leave.

"I'm sorry"I heard him say.

I looked up and saw him sigh. "What?"

He looked at me placing a kiss on my forehead "I'm sure that sex won't solve our problem of me being a jackass but...I'm sorry,I'm sorry I called you a slut and I said I'd slap you im just...not good,im not enough I mean you deserve someone better than Me,someone who actually treats you like a princess,someone who hasn't bullied you most of your life...please Maddy,I should be,sorry"

His eyes seemed like they were getting really watery,I kissed his chubby baby cheek "your okay".

He smiled "I want you to know, I'll always love you"

I nodded "but we shouldn't be together...just...now"

My heart cracked a bit but it seemed like the thing to do,we were coming closer to our last months of school and it seemed for the best,I didn't want us to go through this anymore.

"Yeah,I'll always love you to"

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Michael spent the night that night and after went home, kissing me on the lips one last time.

I felt like we were in heaven and he dropped me lightly back on earth as our lips parted.

the sun shone on my pale skin and I yawned,stretching and going to the bathroom.

I looked at myself and saw something different,I saw something I hadn't before...beauty.

I finally found light and saw there was something in me which made me look beautiful,I knew what michael was talking about now that I could see it myself.

After hearing cereal and scrolling through Facebook. I decided that I could hang out with brin today.

....,....."hello?"

"Hey brin" I said

"Hey what's up?"

I looked around the room "so I was wondering if you wanted to hang out today?"

"Sure,when do you wanna meet up?"

"Around 3"

"sounds good"I could tell that she was smiling "I'll see you then"

"Bye" we said insync

I watched the time and pretty soon after watching episodes of Maury,the big bang theory and two and a half men,I finally got up and got dressed.

I finished curling my hair and went out the door to brins.

We went to the mall for a couple houres and what I told her, she nearly choked on her food.

"What. The . fuck"

I laughed nervously, taking a drink of my sprit. "I'm sorry"

She tried catching her breath "its..ok...uhm so when did this little...you know...English love affair start?"

I chuckled "I wouldn't call it an English love affair but...last night"

"Wow"she said fixing her beanie "never thought"

I nodded,taking another sip "well if were gonna be real...Ikindahadsexwithzach"

I spit out all my drink causing her to groan "damnit Maddy,I was gonna eat that"

"You had sex with Zack!!!"I yelled,causing a few people in the food court to look at us.

'Sorry'I turned back to her "you two had sex?"

She raised her eyebrows "yes,I told you"

"Well was it good?!"I laughed.

She cocked her head to the side "I don't know, I mean... Kinda"

I gave her the face of unsatisfactory and she sighed "okay yes" jeeze, yes it was okay... Happy now it was great"

I smirked.

"Fantastic"

Suddenly my phone went off and it was a call from Michael,I looked up to see brin smirking "your little boy toy... Isn't it?"

My cheeks reddened and I nodded slowly, holding the phone up to my ear.

"Hello?"

"Maddy! Dude I have the best news in the world!"

I chuckled "okay what is it?"

He stopped before continuing "were going on tour, we got signed!"

Hiiiii so like I wanted to again. say thank you for everything and I love you all, even though this story was amazingly dumb it was still fun and I had allot of fun learning from it so thank you guys and the last two chapters will uploaded in a week cause you know I'm lazy af so thank you again I. love you guys. P.s I  didn't edit like I normally do so sorry if any mistakes take place during your reading. Thank you❤