SIRENIC

Love doesn't last forever

Jaebum woke up , when he got looked around his eyes landed on Jinyoung who was still fast asleep. All incidents of the night before came flooding back. He vision got blurry , soon warm tears were running down his cheeks. Why? He hurt the omega so bad , he could vividly imagine the other shaking in his arms, tears didn't stop. His hatred came back, he hated to be the reason the younger cried. Why did the goddess have to be so cruel to the younger. He looked up again to see Jinyoung stirring in his sleep, he reckoned it was because it was slightly chilly, so he got up wiping his eyes,and got the omega a blanket , gently placing it on him. He would be lying if he said he didn't like him back, but he was afraid to love him , give him hope, then let him down, and leave him stranded and hurt. He always believed love never lasted. He saw his parents love fail. How could he do that to Jinyoung, he remembered how broken his father was when his mother said she was leaving. He looked down at Jinyoung, he looked more broken , why did Jinyoung care so much about him, they didn't even know him for long, even the bond couldn't have had such a effect, or could it? He shook his head and decided to head down stairs, where he was greeted by Mark who was standing in the kitchen, he walked up to him greeted him , " Good morning, are the others up?" " Except Jackson and Jinyoung, yeah, why though?"
" I need to talk to you."
"Okay give me a minute,"
" No like now."
" Waht happened, you are scaring me ? Is Jinyoung ok?"
" Hey , he is sleeping, just.... this is about him."
" What , you are freaking me out ."
" Calm down and just listen."
" Go ahead shoot, quick."
" okay, how do I say this, he confessed to me last night.........."
Jaebum told Mark the entire , scenario, he could see the elder's eyes darkening. He straightened up and continued. When he was done he could see the elder, tense up, and his eyes growing cold. Jaebum would be lying if he said he was not scared. He unwilling took a step back. When he stopped talking Mark said , " You , how dare you say that to him, do you lack a heart , you really don't care do you. How could you hurt the other in such a way, he spoke up , instead of letting him prove himself , you decide to say those terrible things." Jaebum saw what he had done he hated himself further. " Listen here Im Jaebum, you are gonna talk it out with him and I swear I see tears in his eyes I will not hesitate in killing you, you get that, you have made a such a disgusting mistake, don't even think about telling Yugyeom and Youngjae they will kill." Jaebum just nodded. He headed back to his bedroom, where Jinyoung was still asleep. He looked so peaceful, expect that the tear stained showed the storm the slight frown broke Jaebum cause he knew he was the cause of the damage. Did he like the other romantically? Probably, maybe, a slight chance. He doesn't know anymore he is so screwed. Jinyoung was going to be the death of him. Jinyoung shifted in the bed.Jaebum patiently waited. Soon Jinyoung's eyes fluttered open.

When Jinyoung opened his eyes the first thing he saw was Jaebum silently  sitting on the couch he had slept on. He vividly remembered last night, he wanted to burst into tears. But he controlled himself, and looked at the alpha who had his back turned to him. He wanted to cry , but he decided to speak up, " What time is it?"
" You are up, it 12:30 p.m." The other replied keeping the conversation less tense.
" Hmm, I want breakfast, I am going down."
" Jinyoungie wai~"
" don't call me that." Jinyoung said trying not to break down, he wanted to slap the other kiss him and what not how was supposed to act like the feelings didn't exist.
" But let's talk, Jinyoung." Jinyoung stopped his sorrow turned into anger, " Talk! Talk about what, how you called me pathetic, how you rejected me, talk about what Jaebum?!" Jaebum flinched . But started, " Jinyoung please I am sorry I should not have said any of that I am the one who is pathetic not you trust me."
" What you like me all of a sudden. Mark talked you into this didn't he?"
Jinyoung wanted to nag Mark for the rest of his life why did he make him talk to him , why couldn't he just let Jaebum walk away.
" Jinyoung let's see what we can do, I don't want to lose your friendship I love your company."
Jinyoung looked at him puzzled anger melting, he wanted to keep the friendship too but he couldn't stay in the same room with the alpha without the urge of kissing him. How was he supposed to control that. " Speak."
The word rang in the silence that enclosed them, Jaebum perked up a bit and spoke , " Jinyoung , can we just be friends, I cannot explain my stance."
" Jaebum you idiot, only of it was that simple, just letting it go, the goddess chose us as 'soulmate' we were lucky enough to meet. You stance can't you just speak up just speak."
" That is the problem, I can't explain."
" Just shut and speak.!"
"Okay! Then listen I am scared to love, you or anyone, scared to hurt someone. I have seen relationships fall apart! I can't bear that, I would die. I don't believe in love,"
Jinyoung was stunned because the man in front of him was so good at interpreting romantic literature he could only that the guy had been in love before. He didn't see the reason one would be afraid to love. He looked at him did the guy think he would leave him to break himself apart. Did he not feel the tug of the bond.
" Im Jaebum do you think I will leave , I will not give up you hear that , I will not give up on you as a friend or lover."
" Jinyoung-"
" Do you not feel the bond I could not be the only one suffering from it , don't you feel the attraction to me, is it that way or you do and are just to scared to admit it eh.?"
" I don't know I am so lost."
"I am not letting you leave me stranded."
" I won't."
" Then we are sorted, I won't court you till you feel comfortable, but when you think it is time I want a chance to prove my feelings for you."
Jaebum stared at him he looked him and nodded then walked out of the room. Jinyoung let the tears he was holding, flow out he fell to his knees did the alpha not feel the bond , did he not feel the gravitation towards him? Soon Yugyeom came in and saw him sobbing , no questions asked, he hugged him and patted his back until his breath evened.
" What did the jerk say?" Yugyeom asked as soon as Jinyoung sat up straight up.
" He won't cut me off."
" he better not."
"Thanks Gyeom."
" Hyung?"
" thank you for being there for me."
" That is my job as best friend is it not?"
" Hmm but ... thanks."
" It was my job but your welcome."
Yugyeom pulled him into a hug. He stayed like that. He let it out .

Jaebum on the other hand went to the room in he end of the hallway and sat down thinking about what Jinyoung said. He truly didn't deserve the younger. His eyes stung his vision going blurry the warm tears trailed down his cheeks. He was shook to the core how could he ever deserve the younger. He didn't,that was for sure. He looked around, give me up Jinyoung , he thought I will never satisfy your heart. He hurt him and yet the younger was ready to love him regardless and yet he didn't know how he felt, he didn't believe be was capable of love. He never was never will be that was for sure. He wanted end it now just walked out the house never to be seen again. His train of thoughts was interrupted by a knock, he looked up to lock eyes with Jackson.
" I heard what you did."
" Dont-"
" Don't, what Jaebum you can't just hurt someone like that."
" I know ."
" Then , doesn't you hurt feel the slightest bit of guilt? Does your conscience hate you? "
"Ye.."
" How could you just say that without thinking twice. Heh? Didn't you care about that guy, not even as a friend."
@This was it Jaebum broke down tears running freely, he raised his voice, " I regret every word I said okay but I don't know how I feel about this.! Stop , just stop telling me I was wrong cause I know! I hate my self for it.!!"
He fell back in his chair and Jackson who was surprised by the outburst came to console him.

Jinyoung heard what Jaebum said it was distant but for sure it was Jaebum. Did he actually feel that way, did he seriously not know how he felt for Jinyoung , then Jinyoung will fight for his love he will prove himself worthy of it. But at the moment he was hurt that the alpha blamed everything on himself, Jinyoung shouldn't have kissed him , it took him by surprise. He knew the other must be crying he wanted to comfort him so he stood up and went towards the direction of the voice and in the last room Jaebum leaned against Jackson, crying. Jinyoung motioned Jackson to leave who reluctantly agreed.
He then wrapped his arms around the alpha and comforted him.
Jaebum felt a new , thinner pair of arms wrap around him he looked to see Jinyoung who had placed his head on his shoulder. Oh god how selfless was he , Jaebum clung to him apologising profusely trying to convince himself rather than the other after a point. Jinyoung just stayed there and let the alpha cry. He stayed silent whispering reassurance between the others apologies . It hurt him to see Jaebum like this . He hated it even. But he just stayed there until his cramps returned . His body went rigid as his hormones took over.
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It is going to be a slow burn so don't expect anything quite soon. As always love ya guys byeeee.