After being disowned by her family, Paris and her daughter Luna moved across the country to start a new life for themselves with the help of Paris' older brother Dallas. Six years later, she returns home after recieving an invite to an old friend's...
"Don't even get me started on what I want to do to that guy. He hurt my baby sister and my niece and he deserves a million times worse than he got." Dallas replies to Jackson and I can almost see the fire burning in his eyes from the raw anger that he feels every time that the subject of Luna's father is brought up.
"I hadn't thought of that J, but we can cross that bridge when we get to it. He deserves to rot in hell, I agree completely, but I can't stay mad at him forever. It's not healthy to hold on to my anger for that long. I know that it's been almost seven years since he left me but some of those old feelings are still there - they always will be - and that scares me." By the time I've finished talking both my brother and my best friend are staring at me with their mouths gaping open, completely in shock.
"Paris, how? How can you still love him after everything that he put you and Luna through? I can't believe this." Jackson pesters me as Dallas simply shakes his head and walks out of the diner with the door slamming shut behind him.
"I don't know J. Yes he hurt me, but he also gave me my daughter and she's the most important thing in my life. I've tried my hardest to just forget about him and move on with my life but it's not that easy; he's always just there, looming in the back of my mind and getting ready to attack. No matter how many people I try to date he'll always have a piece of my heart and I've accepted that now. He's my first love, my childhood sweetheart and the father of my child. That will never change no matter how hard I try so we should all just accept it and move on."
"I'm shocked Cara. I can't believe I could have thought that you could even have a shred of self respect left. I was naïve enough to believe that was why you decided to leave him and this town in your rearview mirror. Why you decided to leave me and Meghan and your family. But now you're back and it's like you're still that same pathetic teenage girl pining after a guy you'll never be able to get."
"You know what Jackson? After everything that you went through I thought that you'd be kind enough to recognise that relationships and love aren't that easy to forget and let go of."
"That's not the same situation and you know it Cara."
"No. It's the same thing. You were too scared to leave for Meghan and Zach's sake and I'm too scared to let go of my feelings for Luna's sake. What do I do when she asks me about her dad? What do you do when Zach asks about his mom? He remembers her doesn't he? He knows that Meghan isn't his mom."
"He remembers Allie but he sees Meghan as his mom. He knows everything and I'm not keeping any of my past from my son." I notice tears forming in the corners of Jackson's eyes and I realise that there's a good chance this is the first time he's spoken about Allie in a long time. "But there's a key difference between our situations Cara. I lost Allie, she died. Nate cheated on you, he's still alive and even if he doesn't want to be a dad he has the option."
"I'm jealous of you J. Do you know why?" I look at my best friend who now has tears falling down his cheeks. I take a deep breath as I mentally prepare myself to speak since I know that what I'm thinking could sound extremely insensitive but it's what he needs to hear right now and I can only hope that he realises I don't mean for it to sound cruel. "She died. You got out of that relationship and now you're happy with Meghan and your son. I'm still trapped. I always will be. I got out of here for a few years but now I'm back and I could see him any time. I put all this effort into rebuilding my life and moving on but I'll never really be able to."
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