"I know I am funny and stupid for you..but its okey..because I know I am smart "he retorts back..I can sense that he is trying to make me laugh..and I appreciated a lot of his efforts..but I just can't bring up myself from having a self pity..
"Seriously?oh yeah..you're stupid for calling me and messaging me always..I told you many times..I don't like a kid..but you are stubborn"..I snapped to discourage him so that he will stop his stupid feelings for me..there's no possibilities for me to accept him at the moment of my breakdown from my boyfriend..who left me without giving me a closure..
"Dont worry sweetheart..I missed you because you are my friend..that's all "I am speechless..the smile on my lips slowly fading after hearing his words..how come a fact words changes my mood in just a seconds..I know he is just protecting his feelings but why I felt disappointed after hearing his words..goodness!I think I am losing my mind..and I hate this kind of feelings..is this a cause of being left...?so I am craving for someone's care but yet I don't like to accept it?
F*ck!i hate this feelings..i need to find something that helps me to keep me away from being pathetic..
"ahhmm...if you dont have anything to say.. I have to go..I am busy now..I gotta go.."I hurriedly lied to him so he'll not notice that I am upset of his words...this stupidass is getting on my nerves...f*ck them all for giving me hope always..they are all scammers...sh!theads!!
"Are you alright?its late at night..where are you going?"he asked me instead...i got annoyed...this dumbass is really s2pid and insensetive..f*ck him!!
"I need to take a shower...its already 12am...so I have to go...see you tomorrow.."I patiently bid my goodbye to him...but it seems like he don't have a plan to drop the call..and i really want to kick his as* for taking too long..
I heard him exhaled..."oh okey...I'm sorry for bothering you..thank you for your time...see you tomorrow sweetheart " his sweet endearment irritates my ear...how come a guy is so sweet to a stranger like me..a stranger who rejected him many times...ahhh...guys are really a scammers and a manipulator..
hmmm..well..he wanna play...?I'll play with him then....I need to plan how to play with these all s2pid guys...I don't wanna be in a serious relationship again..f*ck the f*ckers...I'll show them how to play...I laughed mentally to my insane plan in my head..this is a pathetic idea..but I don't wanna to feel the pain again...I'm done with it..I'm tired of it...I need to bring up myself...I don't like to be a pathetic again...it's time to play and make them pay..
