Few days passed..I ignored the messages and missed calls of the s2pidass moderator...and I slowly forget my boyfriend...I focus on posting in the damn group where I am working..I flirted and act like a crazy to get the attention of every guy..and I succeeded..day by day..I recieved a lot of freind requests and spam messages...but no matter how become popular I am...I still feel empty..I still feel numb...i am really a pathetic girl...its like some piece of my body are lost...
While having fun in the group..I recieve a call..a call from a damn moderator...and it's annoying...its annoying coz I don't like to hear his voice again..but he is eager to call me..so I press the answer button and pretend as sweet as I am...a sweet angel in disguise...i beamed at my stupid thoughts..
"Hey...chad guy..why are you calling me again?"i asked him with sweetness in my voice to seduce him...to seduce his innocent self..I giggles a little to add for my act..I am a best actress anyway..*wink..wink*
"Hey honey..how are you?"he asked me innocently...I can hear the excitement in his voice...but I ignored it..
"Yeah..I am fine...what do you want?"I asked him again..boredom slowly climbed to my system....yeah. that's what I am...I feel bored so easily...
"I just missed you..you're not replying to my messages...I'm just worrying...are you alright?"he slowly asked me like he is reading me if i am alright or not...but I am a good actress..so I know my part...i know what to do..
"I am alright sweetheart...just tired today..."i pause for awhile.."how are you anyway?"I asked him like I am concern of him..but I am not...I'm just out of words...so I asked him...
"Now I am fine...I heard your voice already so I am fine now "he answered with a chuckle in his voice...I silently feel guilty after hearing his sweet words..I know he meant it...but I don't like to have a false hope again..so i keep on ignoring my shit feelings for him...
"So what we gonna do now? "I heard him chuckles..he is really in a good mood...so I dont wanna ruin it...I'm not that really a heartless woman...I still have care in my body..so I change my mood and treats him like a good friend...
"Nothing sweetheart..I just want to hear your voice...it helps me to free from my stressful day.."I can hear how he is trying his best not to show to me how sad he is....and my heart felt sadness for what I was planning in my head...I think I cannot do my stupid plan to him...he is so innocent to be played...
I realized he deserves better....he is innocent...he is just being honest with his feelings...then I am here...planning to play his feelings...God!I am a sinner...
