Yours. (seaycee)

9.

Upstairs in the shower kaycee stayed on the call with Sean. She felt like she would suffocate in her own thoughts if she didn't have him there.

He noticed her searching herself in the mirror, looking defeated and completely broken.

Sean: "take your clothes off baby, you're beautiful, there's nothing to be afraid of okay?"

Kaycee: "I'm nervous"

Sean: "tell me why"

Kaycee: "because when I take them off, I'll know that's what I looked like when he...ya know"

Sean: "I know bubby, and I don't know how to make that any better"

Kaycee: "I don't wanna be afraid Sean"

Sean: "and you don't have to be, it's just me, I've seen you vulnerable many times baby girl"

Kaycee: "you don't care?"

Sean: "no, whatever makes you feel better"

She slowly took her top off, breathing in deep breaths to keep herself from becoming too overwhelmed.

She saw a print on her rib where his fingers must've gripped her, and she ran her finger over it, wincing.

Sean: "don't look at it baby"

Kaycee: "that's from him"

Sean: "I know and you don't know how much I wanna beat his face in right now for it, but we have to stay calm together"

She finished getting undressed, grimacing at her reflection in the mirror with a look of pure angst and disgust.

Sean: "what do you see?"

Kaycee: "someone you won't be able to fix this time"

Sean: "kaycee don't say that"

Kaycee: "someone who looks entirely shattered and hopeless"

Sean: "far from it bub, look at me"

Kaycee: "someone who's never gonna forget this"

Sean: "kaycee look at me!"

His voice was strained and he had tears coming from the corner of his eye.

He never raised his voice at her until then. But he didn't regret it, it was the only way to make her listen.

Sean: "get in the shower and bring me with you"

She made small steps toward the shower and got in, letting the water warm up instantly while touching her back.

Sean: "wash that cock sucker off of you, now"

She knew he was serious, and he was sounding a tad bit mad at her, but in that moment, she found it hot.

Kaycee: "don't cuss at me"

Sean: "it's not at you, it's at that douche who needs to be in fucking prison, get him off of you."

She was instantly turned on by his sudden tone even though Sean was clearly upset.

Kaycee: "babe, please calm down, you're stressing me out"

Sean: "his hands were where mine were supposed to be"

Kaycee: "he didn't deserve it babe, I'm yours"

Sean: "but he took you, and used you, and I want him to fucking suffer"

His protective side was beautiful, and she loved it, but now wasn't the time for him to get territorial.

So she stood her ground.

Kaycee: "I need you, more than anything right now to be strong with me, but I will not hesitate to hang up on you and make you worry if you don't back down and put your testosterone away. Now."

Sean: "...I'm sorry"

Kaycee: "you know how much I love your protective side Sean, it's so hot. But now is not the time to get territorial. Do you understand?"

Sean: "I do...I'm sorry"

Kaycee: "it's fine, I get why you're upset, but we need to stay calm together, use the exercises you taught me"

Sean: "I do baby, all the time"

Kaycee finished up in the shower and got out, rolling her hair up in a towel and throwing on his hoodie and boxers, giving the hoodie a spray of his scent before she walked down stairs carefully.

Her and Sean just looking at each other periodically to make sure the other was okay.

Julian: "hey kayc, how do you feel?"

Kaycee: "cleaner, but i don't really know"

Josh: "you wanna head to bed or?"

Kaycee: "yeah it's pretty late"

Julian: "do you want one of us to be up there with you...?"

Kaycee: "I feel like having someone else pose as Sean to...calm me down will do the opposite, so do you mind if you guys just sleep in the guest room, or in kylies, or even on the couch?"

Bailey: "whatever is fine with you kayc, do you want us to sit in there for a little while"

Kaycee: "no I'm okay I think"

They nodded, giving her a slight smile as she climbed back up the stairs holding her entire world in her hands.

Sean: "tired bubba?"

Kaycee: "yeah"

Sean: "is there anything you wanna get off your chest before you sleep?"

Kaycee: "I guess...just that I'm sorry. I didn't mean for this to happen and I'm sorry he touched me in a way that only you're allowed to."

Sean: "this is far from your fault and that sick bastard will pay for what he did, but for now I need you to know that there's nothing for you to apologize for okay?"

They'd been on the phone for what felt like forever.

Kaycee: "mkay"

Sean: "I feel like I haven't told you how much I love you all night princess, my god I love you so much okay?

Kaycee: "you don't have to tell me, your actions show it all Sean."

Sean: "I'd do it a million times for you"

Kaycee: "tonight was really hard, let alone without you beside me"

Sean: "I know, but you won't let me come home"

Kaycee: "you have duties to attend to, and as much as i want you here, maybe it's good that I learn how to heal alone"

Sean: "I agree bubby"

Kaycee: "I'm gonna try to close my eyes and fall asleep"

Sean: "please don't hesitate to call me if you need me"

Kaycee: "I will"

Sean: "I love you, never forget it"

Kaycee: "I love you too Sean, thank you"

He wiped a tear, not wanting her to see as she hung up and took a long whiff of his scent, closing her eyes.

The night she had was traumatic and she felt completely worthless, her eyes were heavier than they'd ever been, and she fell asleep almost instantly.