aw god damnit i have to study

day 971

i did a lot of things today.

i upgraded the shopping mall, made a panda garden, another resource farm, i even made a mushroom farm yesterday. im proud of myself. 

i also gathered some wood for my mansion. 

now for the sad part.

when i was going home after getting wood, i saw him. and before he could see me, i had to turn away.

i really hate our fate.

just looking at each other means death for one of us. 

i've killed him and his brothers so many times by now, and he still loves me, and he still comes back.

im not sure if thats what people call love, but im sure thats what i call love.

'if you cant call this love, then theres no need for words.'

despite the fact that our relationship is so painful for both of us, despite the fact nobody in any universe wants us together, we don't want to forget each other, we keep coming back to each other, we give each other gifts.

if i cant call this love, ill call it power.

btw, im writing this note on my pumpkin patch. you are standing on a tree, and watching me right now. and if by any chance you are reading this, you can take some pumpkins or melons when i go away.

please remember i love you.

xya.