𝐵𝑢𝑡𝑡𝑒𝑟𝑓𝑙𝑦 𝐷𝑒𝑝𝑎𝑟𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔 // 𝑗𝑗𝑘, 𝑦/𝑛, 𝑘𝑡ℎ

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Y/n POV

All I remembered was trying to stay awake, so anyone .. anyone could hear me and help me. Thankfully, Jungkook came and stopped Han. I struggled to stay awake, and soon everything went black.

Dare I say .. I wondered if I didn't wake up.

Because in that moment, when I was stuck in darkness and so much pain .. there was more peace than I had ever felt.

It was tempting. Suddenly, it became clear. Suddenly, I knew exactly why my mother gave up. It must have called to her too, the way it was calling to me.

I was awake when Jungkook touched my arm. He was so warm, and really this was the first time he touched me so lovingly. I closed my eyes shut, because if I woke up, I would have to face the world again.

I wasn't ready for that.

Jungkook was called out of the room, and that bought me time. Time to finally do what I had been thinking about.

I wanted it all to stop.

But not before saying goodbye properly. Some people deserved a proper goodbye. And the fact that I could only think of three people in my life who would care, made me feel better about leaving.

I grabbed my phone from the table on the side. Even my phone had my blood scattered over it. I picked it up and took out the paper I had folded into my phone case.

The one that Hobi gave me. The one with the smiley face.

Unfolding it for the first time, I noticed a little message scribbled on it.

Are you happy ?

Looking at it, and reading it. I finally understood and accepted that I wasn't happy. Grabbing the doctors pen from the side, I began to write.

Staring down at the creased paper, I sighed. It was my turn to tell my story. It was my turn to pour out my heart into that piece of paper.

So I did. I wrote down the perfect letter.
To the one person I truly learned to love.

I called someone, to keep the letter safe. I could trust him with this. He said he would come over and collect it from my room. Yet, he had no idea what this was for.